well, the days seems to pass so fast that i've ended my time with ambush TEMPORARILY til O levels. all i can say is that i will miss you all VERY VERY much. all the fun that you gave me, all the experiences. all the various lessons....

I LOVE MY COLLEAGUES!

i realise that this year is a year of much seperation. i'm leaving bartley. i've left ambush, but to be back. i'm leaving pl at the end of this year. how much more seperation must i go through? i really cannot understand how Jesus is willing to go through that moment of seperation for us. its just crazy and mad. i mean, the depth of His love is radical yet unbelievable to the extent that people disbelief it. God, why? why me?

why seperate? love covers all mistake. why have break ups? yet sometimes, people who are secretly admiring have to give up their love in the end. isn't sad that world is screwed?? yet at times, we just wish to see the one we love to be happy and that's all we ask of. how come love can cover all this multitude of mass errors? somehow, love is so simple but yet easily misunderstood..

i just want to shout out loud.
i just want to scream it to the world.
i want the whole world to know who i love.


somehow, the world is not just screwed and messed.

its more than that. its VERY screwed and messed.


our fate may never cross but i just want you to know that i love you.

hello my dearest people! haha. hmmm.. worked with great people today. saw my manager and supervisor today. all i can say is that they're excellent people. =)

hmmm.. today, i worked at swiss german.. not a lot of people. the crowd was JUST nice. haha.if everytime i worked at such a pace, it'll do me excellent. haha. hmmm... very tired.. had to do lots of art work and chiong to work today..

had a fantastic day overall...

life is more than what you aim to do.

hello! im gonna go work later.. how exciting. haha.. hmmm.. leaving soon.. love ya all..

life's short and by making full use of it is having a significant PURPOSE.

hello my beloved dearestests. =)

i'm apalled with fashion nowadays. its really scary and horrifying to thy eyes. can you see the standard dropping like steeply? absolutely frightening! where are the days when fashion was normal? they're long gone. i guess that people are trying to find something that will fit them. ah wells. isn't sad that people are going down like that? absolutely wasted.

hmmms... have been thinking quite a bit this few days. well, its like... things are obviously screwed but people don't see it. i don't understand. its like blatantly there for al the world to see.. hmmm.... different agendas i guess.

mixed feelings about you now.. i guess that your place in my life is dropping.. ain't that good. can concentrate on studies PURELY. haha. hmmm.. dreamt of you last night.. haha. it was quite a funny dream. lol. hmm.. my bitch dreamt about her dreamer boy too. it was quite funny too... ahh.. the power of dreams. =)

Hearts gone astray, deep in her when they go.
I went away just when you needed me so.
You won't regret, I'll come back begging you. (mmm)
Won't you forget, welcome the love we once knew.

Open up your eyes, then you realise.
Here I stand with my everlasting love.
Need you by my side.
Girl to be my pride.
Never be denied everlasting love....

oh...

Hearts gone astray deep in hurt when they go.
I went away just when you needed me so.
You wont regret I'll come back begging you.
Wont you forget, welcome love we once knew.

Open up your eyes, then you'll realise.
Here I stand with my everlasting love
Need you by my side.
Girl to be my pride.
Never be denied everlasting love.

From the very start open up your heart, feel that you've fall in,
Everlasting love......

need a love to last forever.
need a love to last forever.
need a love to last forever.
need a love to last forever.........

I need a love to last forever

hello all!!
haha. my mouse is working. like a grand total of a lot of days. haha. anyways, i've decided to buy a new phone. i don't know what phone to get though.
sony ericssonk700i or samsung sgh-x640c.


phones... the joy of being able to choose.. =)

Making my way downtown
Walking fastFaces pass
And I'm home bound
Staring blankly ahead
Just making my way
Making a way
Through the crowd
And I need you
And I miss you
And now I wonder....
If I could fallInto the sky
Do you think time
Would pass me by
'Cause you know I'd walk
A thousand miles
If I could
Just see you tonight
It's always times like these
When I think of you
And I wonder
If you ever Think of me
'Cause everything's so wrong
And I don't belong
Living in yourPrecious memories
'Cause I need you
And I miss you
And now I wonder....
If I could fallInto the sky
Do you think time
Would pass me by
'Cause you know I'd walkA thousand miles
If I could Just see youTonight
And I, IDon't want to let you knowI, IDrown in your memory
I, IDon't want to let this go
I, IDon't....
Making my way downtown
Walking fastFaces pass
And I'm home bound
Staring blankly ahead
Just making my way
Making a way
Through the crowd
And I still need you
And I still miss you
And now I wonder....
If I could fallInto the sky
Do you think timeWould pass us by
'Cause you know I'd walkA thousand miles
If I could Just see you...
If I could fallInto the sky
Do you think timeWould pass me by
'Cause you know I'd walkA thousand miles
If I could Just see you
If I could Just hold youTonight

hello my dearestest!=)
lol. hmmm. today was quite tiring. i was super sleepy and i keep dozing off during literature lesson. ah wells. the book is rather dry for the front part. lol. hmmm. my recess is at 8.30 in the morn! so early~ don't need to eat breakfast. haha.

hmmm.. i really miss spending time with God. its been so so long. i mean i do talk to Him but i want to read the Bible like hardcore. haha. la la la. im just really happy. anyways..

went out with francesca, joycelyn and sok hwai today. went to heartland and walked around. saw lots of stuff. lol. shopping!!! i need to go shopping!! hmmm. i wonder what phone i should get. i need to buy shoes~ shoe bags~ bags~ shop shop shop! haha. but i don't wanna drop. lol. after outing with them, went to meet handsome. we went to junction 8. stayed at life bookstore to talk. quite wierd what? haha. handsome's idea. haha. then, went to meet julius and daniel at amk library. i saw ronald's sister!! she very cute leh! she look at me then, trying to figure out who i was. i was also wondering then did i realise. haha. she's so cute! haha. she waved at me when she was leaving. so cute! haha.hmmm. then, handsome and i went to look for eugene at serangoon central. ate dinner, went to look for my hairband then, bought chocolate and went home. haha.

i miss you dearly.
i miss you so so much.
aiie. but reality sets in whenever
i think about me.
no matter what,
there's zero possibilty.

its actually blessing in disguise. haha i don't intend to enter into relationships now also. haha. so if it was made easy to enter, i would have died. haha not literal death but yeah, you get the point. haha. anyways. i still like him. its just a like. haha. nothing more. =)

hello! =) i have decided to crap some stuff into here. =D. haha.

anyways, i miss `him today. `he didn't reply my sms lorh. i felt so sad. haha. but never mind. `he is not my main focus of my life. i've God which fulfills. haha. =) okay, but the point is that i still miss `him. haha. hmmm. anyways, `he replied something yesterday that made me felt heart-warmed. =D. haha. it maybe nothing but to me, it meant something. haha. it was kinda something that came as a shock. haha. but nevertheless, i may be imaginating things. aiie. haha. but an infatuation shouldn't be much to handle. haha. tomorrow, my babe is gonna help me do something. fun! =D.

hmmm. i don't know, but i think im placing too much emphasis on this infatuation. maybe i should likw just not do anything and it'll faaaaaddddeeee aaaawwwaaaayyyyyyy........
haha
that was quite funny. but anyways! haha. hmmm. whatever. i don't really care now. haha. im happy with the way things are now. haha.

til then, my beloved~ haha.

hello everyone! =)
i know. i m back, like finally right? haha. hmm. right now, im total infatuated with `you. yes, i still am. i intended to tel `you when i end work. lol. a uber big step. i have never tell a guy that i like that i like him. haha. but still, its a new experience isn't? haha. hmmm. `you can ignore me for all i care. i guess that `you probably will. *shrugs* irregardless. i think at least you'll know how i feel. i don't wanna be the fool that stays there in the secret. just like i was in the past. really silly. hmmm. although it maybe like crazy but who knows? likes, crushes and infatuations are just for the fun of it. =D

sighs. i still miss `you lots even if its just for fun.


well, things in the future are unpredictable.
somehow, you'll only remain as a precious memory in the past.
i'd love for you to be mine.
i'd love to share my life with you.
but somehow, you will stay deep inside my precious memories.
staying safe and happy.
promise me, nothing will change even if you hate my guts.

iminfatuatedwith`you.