see my spastic actions. that is what i mean when i say im clowning around.
attap chees. cerlyn, manda, ME and corinne.
no, he is NOT my boyfriend. i've someone else in mind. lol.
THIS IS A CANDID SHOT.

anyways! my birthday has just passed. although it was just a normal day but i learnt even more truths about humanity and its selfishness. hmmm. oh wells. life and its selfishness. *shrugs*. anyways, i celebrated my birhtday in advance. enjoyed myself at party world. it was really really fun singing and being a clown. i have photos to prove. lol.

im sick! as in, i'm ill.. not sick, mentality. lol. hmmmm. well, having this really bad throat and flu and cough. oh wells, just after my birthday. darnation. la la la. im quite happy this few days. just decided to like heck care about everything. i mean, life is too much for me to go care about all the nitty gritty stuff. if every SMALL little thing mattered, like my mum standing behind me now and guessing what this is, seriously, i will just have too muh worrying about. madness. la la la. she finally realised that its my blog. lol. hmmm. that was quite funny. hmmm.

i can't be bothered with the small stuff that makes me sweat unnecessarily.

im so looking forward to my birthday this year.. its quite exciting. lol. haha. i don't know.. although i have community involvment programme. oh wells! all i know that i am ready to face life again. i have found new courage in Jesus. its really encouraging when i saw evan writing a verse on her study time table. so happy! haha. hmm. im just feeling happy. its cool. lol.

hope can go out and play this weekend. lol.

today, was fantastically fun. lol. i met evan after school and we went to church to study. well, we talked A LOT but of course, tried our best to accomplish some work done. =) we musst get into the habit of studying. this is very important as it IS our final year. blah blah blah. haha. this is what evan will say. that rubbished girl. lol

anyways, i'll be seeing her on saturday. fantastic! can talk rubbish with her again. haha

hello hello! how have you all been? i've not really done my holiday homework, but nevertheless. lol. hmm.. hope its going fine for most.

i love my girl from church. she's slightly bimbotic but still! a fantastic girl to hang out with. =)

evan, if you will read this. you're loved by me okay? haha.

it was my second visit to malaysia ever since i was 5. that's really long ago. lol. hmm.. i went there expecting nothing. because seriously, i knew NO one except my uncle, aunty and my cousins. so, it was kind of a dread for me at first.

Day One.:
reached there in the afternoon. we were one of the earliest. the journey was pretty long. maybe it was just me. lol. then, we waited around and went to the ballroom where we assembled for the ice breakers. we gathered into our colour groups and played the guiness world of record-like game. yeah. they requested for a new comer and i went up. they wanted the longest... i thought they wanted the longest breathe and i obviously would have failed that. but guess what they looked for in the end. the longest eyebrow. super funny. i came in second. cool eh? i have LONG eyebrows. lol. hmmm. then, we played a couple more games then checked into our rooms and unpacked my stuff. first day went past like a swirl. too fast, got caught in the blur.

Day Two.:
we had breakfast,sermon,tea break,sermon then lunch. felt really sleepy throughout. lol. then, we had an afternoon Q and A session before games. it was fun! i played table tennis for my group but lost utterly. i had ZERO experience okay. haha. hmm. then, i played billard for the first time. learnt how to do the placing,scoring on my own. smart right? lol. then, played with my uncle. then, practiced my table tennis. quite fun actually. then, went to bathe and tidy up myself. went for night sermon after which we had vespers. vesper is like discussion group. met my mates for the first time. felt really awkward there. superly. hmmm. walked back with shiyun,tanya and evangeline. evan stayed on the 2nd level and me third. tanya and shiyun stayed on the ground floor. talked to them abit. quite alright.

Day Three.:
morning part was about the same til afternoon. nothing much really that different. but games in the afternoon was good. i played the word games. i went for word search/win,lose or draw/jenga. i didn't help much for word search. i 'acted out' the win,lose or draw thing. adrian,this scholar guy, guessed it within the first 3 actions. i'm good. haha! then, we went on with jenga. KC played first. he won. then i played. of course i won. the last round was nearly indecidable.cause some cartoon knocked the table. lol. then, both players got awarded one point. so we won overall. quite good. then, went for dinner. joined my batch for night sermon and then vespers.

aiie. my memory is not working. brain dead. too tired.haha. bottom line: i had fun and a new close friend found. lol. i love my church and my God. He rocks. yupp. haha. i hoped you all missed me. =)

hello! my disappearence wasn't for very long, so i don't know what's up with this title. lol.

my second finger on my right hand feels spastic, like its not been used enough. lol.

hmmm.. haven't update anything solid in ages.. let's see what can i update........... i just watched princess dairy.. was really bored and, ya. there i went watching my show. lol. hmmm.. i guess its a really sweet story.. lol.


tired and my second finger is less spastic now.. qutie normal. lol

A minister passing through his church in themiddle of the day, decided to pause by the altarand see who had come to pray. Just then the backdoor opened, a man came down the aisle. Theminister frowned as he saw the man hadn't shavedin a while. His shirt was kinda shabby and hiscoat was worn and frayed, the man knelt, he bowedhis head, then rose and walked away. In the daysthat followed, each noon time came this chap, eachtime he knelt just for a moment, a lunch pail inhis lap. Well, the minister's suspicions grew,with robbery a main fear. He decided to stop theman and ask him, "What are you doing here?" Theold man said, he worked down the road. Lunch washalf an hour. Lunchtime was his prayer time, forfinding strength and power, "I stay only moments,because the factory is so far away; as I kneelhere talking to the Lord, This is kinda what Isay: "I JUST CAME AGAIN TO TELL YOU LORD,HOWHAPPY I'VE BEEN, SINCE WE FOUND EACHOTHER'SFRIENDSHIP AND YOU TOOK AWAY MY SIN.DON'T KNOWMUCH OF HOW TO PRAY, BUT I THINK ABOUTYOUEVERYDAY. SO JESUS, THIS IS JIM CHECKINGINTODAY." The minister feeling foolish, told Jimthat was fine. He told the man he was welcome tocome and pray just anytime. Time to go, Jimsmiled, said "Thanks." He hurried to the door. Theminister knelt at the altar, he'd never done itbefore. His cold heart melted, warmed with love,and met with Jesus there. As the tears flowed, inhis heart, he repeated old Jim's prayer: "I JUSTCAME AGAIN TO TELL YOU LORD, HOWHAPPY I'VE BEEN,SINCE WE FOUND EACH OTHER'S FRIENDSHIPAND YOUTOOK AWAY MY SIN. DON'T KNOW MUCH OFHOW TO PRAY,BUT I THINK ABOUT YOU EVERYDAY. SOJESUS, THIS ISME CHECKING IN TODAY." Past noon one day,theminister noticed that old Jim hadn't come. As moredays passed without Jim, he began to worry. At thefactory, he asked about him, learning he was ill.The hospital staff was worried, but he'd giventhem a thrill. The week that Jim was with them,brought changes in the ward. His smiles, a joycontagious. Changed people, were his reward. Thehead nurse couldn't understand why Jim was soglad, when no flowers, calls or cards came, not avisitor he had. The minister stayed by his bed, hevoiced the nurse's concern: No friends came toshow they cared. He had nowhere to turn. Lookingsurprised, old Jim spoke up and with a winsomesmile: "the nurse is wrong, she couldn't know,that in here all the while everyday at noon He'shere, a dear friend of mine, you see, He sitsright down, takes my hand, leans over and says tome: "I JUST CAME AGAIN TO TELL YOU, JIM,HOW HAPPYI HAVE BEEN, SINCE WE FOUND THISFRIENDSHIP, AND ITOOK AWAY YOUR SIN. ALWAYS LOVE TOHEAR YOU PRAY,I THINK ABOUT YOU EACH DAY, AND SO JIM,THIS ISJESUS CHECKING IN TODAY." Many people willwalk inand out of your life, but only true friends willleave footprints in your heart. May God hold youin the palm of His hand and Angels watch over you.But for those of us who are already His, He notonly holds us in the palm of His hand, but hasengraved our names there, and we are continuallyin His sight (Isaiah 49:16) Yes, I do love God. Heis my source of existence and Savior. He keeps mefunctioning each and everyday. Without Him, I willbe nothing. Without him, I am nothing but with Him"I can do all things through Christ thatstrengthens me."(Phil 4:13)

i feel sad? its like i don't know how to face you? you're different. maybe you felt that i irritated you, fine. but don't just ignore me and stuff. i feel wierd. you're not brave enough to face the situation? i feel like things are just whizzing past me with me having no idea at all. i hate this. i hate you. you really make me detest you so much. if you don't want me even as a friend, say so. i'll gladly leave. really. with no regrets.

all that you have left me with are fragmented memories, a broken heart and a distorted image of you.