this is me with longer hair!
hello! well, school holidays have started but it doesn't feel like its the holidays. i have lessons. gosh. im tired to bits. hmms. i am in love with this song by dbsk - whatever they sya(acapella version). they're good, really. lol. okay. my eyes are officially half shut and im off to bed. see ya dearies!

暧昧让人受尽委屈
找不到相爱的证据
何时该前进
何时该放弃
连拥抱都没有勇气
只能陪你到这里
毕竟有些事不可以
超过了友情
还不到爱情
远方就要下雨的风景
到底该不该哭泣
想太多是我还是你
我很不服气
也开始怀疑
眼前的人
是不是同一个
真实的你
暧昧让人变得贪心
直到等待失去意义
无奈我和你
写不出结局
放遗憾的美丽
停在这里
wo……
hu…wo…

well, this song reminds me deeply of `him. the `him i still think about every now and then. sighs. i know its been so long but it carried some happy stuff that i like to think about every now and then. hmmm. i'll be seeing you soon when i start work again. gee, i wonder what will happen next. maybe, there'll be no tomorrow. just as i like to see it, things will never be. maybe its just me, but then it'll be deep truth.

hurt inside,
strong outside.
never told a single soul.
til today i bare my soul.

who can let me out,
out of this neverending trap?

today, i went with my parents to beauty world. its such a run down place but has fantastic food. lol. apparently, its my mom's old working place next door. all the old stuff but quite fun to see my mom reminisce about it. lol. saw stuff, quite intrigued. oh,oh! i saw this cute guy eating at beauty world. maybe beauty world ain't that old afterall. lol. hmmm..

i don't know why but i keep thinking about you. how? lol.

no more him... .

hello!
well, today i had my math paper 2 as well as english paper two. i just felt really inspired to write so much. lol my formulae came at the right time and la di da. hmmm. Glory really has to go to God. =)

tomorrow i have a paper at 1130 but i've gotta be at school at the usual time. so darn irritating. oh wells. whadda do? hmmm. i just love grease!!!!!!!!! okay. its this really cool old show featuring olivia newton john and john travolta. lol. its so nice. the songs and the dance. so much better than what we all see nowadays. lol.


im thinking that the 90 hour marathon is going to not work out. somebody prove me wrong. i have absolute no faith in my class but i still wanna make it happen.

somehow, somehow.

today, i remembered that night
where the tears flowed
out from a broken heart

the pain i felt
still afresh today
cringed my heart to tears.

i don't know why
when my lips said to forget
but my heart entwined with your smile

i can't seem to forget you
maybe its because
im hopelessly devoted to you.

hello! im so in love with grease! lol. especially olivia newton john's hopelessly devoted to you in the show. its such a fantastic show. you all should go watch. anyone up for the musical? =)

today, i had my engkish compo and math paper. all i know is a screwed up my math paper. darns.

oh yes, manik! sorry i forgot to reply you this afternoon. i was busy then fell asleep. lol


remants of a beleaurged heart
hear the cadence throb.
beating loud and clear,
the absolute symphony of pain and tear.

nice? nice? i composed myself. *beams proudly*

resplendent glamour
shining evermore.
like a star
that fades afar.


aiie. the problem of creativity is that it appears at wrong place. when my math formulae disappered. drats.

hello! im so bored. today was quite usual. did usual stuff. oh wells. my mom is over reacting but, nonetheless. hmmm.

i saw my girl today. my gosh i miss her so much!

hey! i was talking to manik about this guy, x, who played this really childish dare on me. let me tell you.

apparently, his friend dared him to tell some random girl that x liked her. and yours truly was choosen for the job. never mind that fact, but i was so darned like ... when he said that he 'liked' me. so never mind. x's godsister told me lots of stuff about him and im so glad that he doesn't like me for real. lol. oh wells. when i found out the truth, i was actually rejoicing. lol. seriously. i happened to be in the toilet when that happened and i shall not tell you the rest. lol.


la la la.

manik went to help for some sex education talk thing. apparently, he found it educating. sounds interesting. lol.


wei she me wo hai shi na me xiang ni?
wei she me wo de xin yi ran nian zhe ni?
wei she me wo nao hai li hai man zhe ni de lian?

sui ran wo kou zhong wang le ni,
dan xin li nian zhe ni.
wang ni shi wo bu neng zuo de shi.

istilllove`you.

hello! today, i have collected my spoilt phone repaired., but i love my cousin's lg phone. so flippy, so nice. lol. hmm.
i went out with eugene leo for interview today. he'll most probably be getting the job. and me, im going back for a month or so. i can't wait to get started! i miss the working environment. so fun. lol. hmmm.


i do not deal with childish and retarded people who play silly games. i simply ignore them.


i have found an old new friend! manik from singapore. okay. that was quite lame but anyways! we've been talking quite a lot lately and i only found out recently that he's going overseas! must must must catch up and go out soon. lol. he's funny. realy. craps like there's no tomorrow. =) i love my friends. really. lol. aiie.



可惜不是你,陪我到最后
shi shui hui liao zai
ai zhe yi ge shen ai ta ren de wo?

hello! yes, last night was shirley's birthday party. it was messy and a bit unorganized. lol. anyways, i met shengyao at 7.45 (supposed to be at 7.30) because that old man took so long. lol. late for 15 minutes but i had a good time reading my book. then we took 88 to pasir ris FROM ang mo kio. my goodness. let me tell you, the bus ride killed all my nervous system in my ass okay. the old man said it would only take like 15 minutes but apparently nope. it took 15 times 3. goodness. old man really old man. can tahan so long. anyways, on the way there. we were standing trying to sit. then, when we finally got a seat, he started taking his camera to take photos. he sat in the dark, refused to turn on his flash and expected a good photo to come out. never mind if it was just a photo, he decided to take a video. such a smart fella. really. lol. i had to help him in the end. he claimed that it was embarrassing but it wasn't much of a choice if you want the light right? lol. i kept making him move into the light. lol. we also took a photo together but he can't send it to me because he doesn't have the programme. darn. in the end, the bus ride proved too much that i took out my book to read. he was astounded by the thickness of the book. seriously, people who don't read gets astounded by any thick book. lol. finished the book within 10 minutes. when we decided to take a cab, the bus turned into the interchange. we were like, dang! lol. took a cab down into aloha loyang. being a nice gentleman, he paid. well, i can tell you that i only knew like 5% of whoever was there? and there was this MEAN guy who commented me being ugly. im like?? right? thank goodness i didn't hear what he said. gosh. that was so rude. really. i know im not pretty? but still? that's so darn evil! lol. hmmm. never mind. shall not dwell upon that. just like sat around. shengyao talked to his friend, weixiong, whoever that was. then, i decided to go look for leong, cheryl and fiona. leong! that idiot! shouted when he saw me can? i was like my gosh shut up, this is emmbarrasing. what's so rare about looking at me? really, absolute madness. lol. but he's a nice guy. hmmm. although shengyao asked me to call them over, i was like never mind la. also only me going over. im not that big shot or anything. then, hung around with leong and gang a while. took photos. played uno. super lame. cause, we played til it was left with me and yao. i drew 3 draw two cards. he was like damn suay la ya? haha. super funny. we were like see who win. then i was like ha! im better than you. then he was like second last only what. then i say at least better than you~ la la la. lol. my gosh. on hind sight, that was so childish. lol. then parents came, went home. blahs. the rest is history.

anyways, i thought it was quite fun yesterday. lol.

yes, now, im going to blog about my mayday outing. lol. super fun okay. i went out with shengyao, ronghua, andy and cindy! lol. okay.. let me tell you something,

ithinkandy'sreallyaniceBROTHERLYfriend.

lol. i shall copy and paste my moblog entry. lol.

yesterday, i went out with `him, ronghua,andy and cindy. quite fun! okay. met them at orchard mrt at around 12-ish. left to shop! cindy wanted to buy some clothes so we looked around. the guys were absolutely hilarious. they were being lame by telling me how low i should wear and how much weight i should lose, blah blah blah. super funny. andy is such a lovely big brother. seriously. i think he's really nice. lol. hmmm. then, actually at the end of the day, cindy only bought a pair of new shoes. hmmm. anyways, we watched the wild. it was quite madagascar-y. both animated animals. how different can it get besides storylines and all. anyways, yesterday was so fun. jacking one another. the guys were so childish, so lame. really, i have absolutely no idea what to say about them. cindy and i were like shaking our heads. lol. oh yeah! cindy's from shanghai, darn cool. i loved the weather there.=) oh ya. andy thought that the show started when it was one of the commercials. .. i was like.. i didn't the wild had penguins as their main character. ... lol. he so brotherly. lol oh ya. he shouldn't wear specs! he looks so much better. lol.he say i shouldn't wear too.cause i have triple eyelid. im like ? no.. double only. lames. he say i can put on make up too. i don't want. clog my pores. lol

yupp, yupp. that's about it. la la la.

hello people, i am in an absolute down mood today. okay, maybe rejection ain't such a big deal, but i still liked him so much. man! its heart wrenching. sighs. i mean, never mind. i also don't know. seriously. i feel so so so lost.. LOST! INSECURE! who understands? no one! who cares? i don't know. i want to cry but i feel so numb that i can't cry. i feel so numbed. maybe it haven't sunk in yet but im feeling it man. aiie. life sucks and love really hurts at times. oh wells.