heylo ya all!

you know what? i think i shall just choose to ignore. i can feel lesser and concentrate better. i need no more shit in my life. so yeah.

hmmm. let's see. i wanna go dancing in the club! gosh. i can feel the blood rushing and surging through my body to escape onto the dance floor. maybe after my o levels, im gonna go for fun man! gonna call my godbrother, my friends.. sheesh. dancing man. i can feel it in my bones..

LET'S ALL GO DANCING!

first things first, someone saw you with mirame. i don't know what to say or think anymore cause my heart is too weak and broken to go through anymore hurt. if you want to fool around behind my back, i shall just mention it three times. after that, there will be no more us. whether you read this post or not, its final. seriously, my heart is already left in shreds. you bring me up and down like this. you think i have the upper hand and im toying with you? you're wrong. that's all i can say and will say. whatever you want to say, i really don't know and don't want to handle it anymore. its just too much. you say you think for me, but somehow, it just doesn't show. i never believed that you can't show your love. if you really love someone, whatever you do, speaks of that person. however, for you, its just.. missing. its just empty..


anyways, on a brighter side, i met up with my godson and godbrother today, eugene and john, respectively. we first went to chomp chomp to eat stingray, popiah,hokkien mee and fried carrot cake. we all ordered chocolate beancurd because i wanted to eat that! hahaa. aren't they obliging? haha. hmm.. apparently, john thinks that its not nice. bahh! bad taste.haha. hmmm. but i don't care cause i like it. then, after that, as we were deciding to settle somewhere that has aircon cause of the horrible hazy weather, we strolled into NTUC fairprice. how exicting. ha. i was the pseudo tour guide.. lame crap. hmmm. we walked around and commented about lame stuff. seriously, john is such a lamer. he craps like no tomorrow and i? becomes the butt of most jacking. how sweet of my brother. heh! then, we finally decided to settle at the prata shop where i finally cured my craving for the milo dinosaur! yeah~ love that man. haha. im so full after that. hmmm.. tonight was a fantastic night spent although i have exams in 2 weeks time.

I LOVE MY BROTHER AND SON. HAHA!

you..
i really don't want to say anything.
i'm just gonna close two eyes about us.
i bet you,
its gonna drift away, far.

well, well, well. let's see..

i was woken up by a frantic 6 calls by my ahloy and 1 from eugene leo to wake me up. however, the 6 calls from ahloy was about him wanting to clarify whether im cheating behind his back. for the last time in the entire universe, I FUCKING SWEAR THAT I AM NOT CHEATING BEHIND YOUR BACK!..
gawd. what must i say man? now you're on a timeout with me cause you say that you need a personal time. okay, i agreed. i need to do my o levels too. whatever else, you came by this morning to meet me and you were so cold to me? i was like euphoric when i saw you but hell you were giving me attitude. if you're so embarrassed to be with me in my uniform, then don't find me til like tomorrow. why? cause tomorrow's the last official date for me to be in school man! (ed's note: HOORAY! no more of wearing uniform although i'll need that when im back for the papers. drats. lol)
never mind. i was thinking if that personal time was so important, hell just say no you can't meet me. i'll understand! i said do you want to come meet me since i'll be around your workplace before school? then, you were like hmmm, okay. i don't mind! oh gawd. i didn't force you to come man. never mind that. you say that the main issue of why we are on a timeout is because you think that im cheating behind your back. and then when we settled it last night, i thought then the timeout thing was over. gawd no. and you didn't say a word.

oh my gawd. i feel so lost now cause its a whole swirl of emotions. goodness knows what you are doing behind MY back and im trusting you again? after that, i told you that im meeting up with my godbrother and godson for chocolate bean curd and there you go again about me cheating behind your back. WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT? I FUCKING TOLD YOU THIS BECAUSE YOU SAID THAT IM NOT TELLING YOU THINGS AND IM HIDING. WHY DO I HIDE? BECAUSE YOU WILL GIVE ME THIS KIND OF NONSENSE WHEN I TELL YOU THE TRUTH!!!

seriously, i don't know what to do.. you want me to delete every single guy's number and break contact with all the guys? and i know that its the bitch who has been feeding you all this information and you need not cover her ass. if you want to, go be with her la. im sick and tired of she doing shit to you and you getting turned on. if you know any better, you should just move away. DO YOU EVEN LOVE ME ANYMORE? fuck. and i thought i was in the wrong.

gosh. i can't say anything but sorry to my darling.

i don't know what's wrong with me. i think its the menses. i have hurt you so much but yet i can't see the bloody that's in the pain your eyes everytime. why am i so oblivious to your effort and everything else? i only thought of myself and that is fucking selfish. damnnit. leen's right.. shit. i think too much. i should stop it or i'll be like shit? OMG.

I AM FUCKING SORRY AND I NEED TO TALK TO YOU DESPERATELY.

omgomgomgomg... i miss you so much...


why? why? can't i see your heart break so bad whenever you try to move on? i know its hard cause its been 4 years, exactly like how i loved my ex-crush sorta. shit...

hello jellos yellows!

okay. seriously, i have no idea what the hell my sister is thinking about cause she claims that she's stressed about my life and all that bullshit. seriously. i think she's just lying cause she is a dumbass liar. think i can't see through it all? shuttup!

gosh. i was so pissed that i was yelling the hell outta myself.


anyways, today in school.
the Singapore Association of Idiots (aka S.A.I.) has came up with the latest education syllabus that all SAI members have to abide to. we have so far came up with the math formulas not coming up with the languages yet.