today in school, we decided to go for a silly ghost hunt. well, it all started out because we were transferred to the level 6 of our block as our classroom's aircon was not working. so, we went up and it was cool. lol.


this silly fella dickson suggested to go ghost hunting! very lame idea i know. but it was fun. yeah. we did lotsa of stupid things but we took photos as well.. roar!! haha...



i miss him. =)

ha ha ha ha ha ha ha.


today,i had a very bad cramp. haha. i was with peipei. i tahan my cramps like crazy but BTH. DAMN FUCKINGPAINFUL LA. i go toilet two times can....
the second time is during the lesson and i went there SUPER LONG TIME la. so paiseh.. lol. but after the second time, mcm release and i feel so much better. did a presentation for the kidsread training and yeah.i guess our groups is one of the better ones. lol. hmmm. then i ate chicken chunks.. SUPER OILY LA. haha.



anyways, i miss school~ wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.


la la la. i need to teach his sister her o levels subjects which are EONS ago man. hope i stil remember some of them..

such a tired mood.. oh ya. went to sun restaurant. the food is not as shiok as the wheelock. i went to the one @central.. yeah.. near my dancefloors! !!! lol. ate some hokkidao ice cream rocks my socks. and saw this damn nice brand! the name of the brand is supremebeing. im so gonna shop there! its an indie clothing UK label. the bags are gorgeous.. didn't look much at the clothes though.. lol



alrights. im lazy to post and im on the phone.. tata all!

its like for a month or more and from what i know, you guys are lovely!

when i first came to RP and into the orientation class, i really didn't know what it would be like. i thought i would be stuck with my sec school classmate for the rest of my days in RP which would be quite silly ain't? i wanted to make this new chapter in my life something different. i was sick and tired of my 'old' life. for me, i really wanted to do something different. although i decided to be anti-social but as soon i start to get to know you guys, its like WOW. a shock and a real eye opener. for people whom i thought were idiots turned out to be mighty fine!

what touched me the most was when i got home early cause i wasn't feeling well, more than 10 of you IM-ed me online to say that you loved me! although it was kinda a joke, but it was REALLY SWEET. gosh. it was something. lol.

i sure am gonna miss you all when we end our learning together in august. although its easy for some of us to re-mingle and all, BUT I'LL STILL MISS YA'LL!!


gosh~~ i love my clas too much. im getting too attached. lol. =)

im just fucking bored.. damnit.. just quarrelled with my parents.. made me think of my sec sch days again. it was like i used to quarrel with them almost everyday. trying to act rebellious and all that shit. damnit.


AHHH.


im all alone at home now. they went out for dinner. i didn't go.. too stubborn.. STARVING NOW. anyways, im just feeling lonely, again.

I MISS HIM!!






i've got a small lil confesstion to make to my school mates... damnit.. i don't even know whether should i say...


AIIE.

WHY CAN'T PEOPLE JUST FUCKING LEAVE ME ALONE?

i fucking already say its not. CB.



OMG. IM GONNA LEAVE HOME. FUCKING HELL HATE THIS FUCK FAMILY! FUCKYOU AND YOU AND YOU!!!!!

KNNBCCB.

hella boring. boo me. im so tired. i was overslept and reached class with only 20 mins left to do my UT. gosh. it was so close. damn it. at least i wasn't like totally skipped UT. thank gosh.i woke up at like 0815? it was amazing man! haha

anyways, i miss him. at least i met him last night. hmmm. saw something i shouldn't have.


DAMNIT TO GUYS WHO THINK THAT GIRLS ARE GOOD TO PLAY WITH. FUCKER YOU!



my gosh. how i wish i had the power to protect my friend from all this shit. its just so sad that amanda had to go through all these shit. damnit man. he really ought to go die!!!! HMPH. damnit. made me so freaking pissed off. fucker.

i guess what amanda say is right. i really ought to go talk to him about it. although he may not listen and all but i guess i can also try writing it down on paper. oh wells. sounds so silly. i really never wanted it to end cause i wanted it so much. ARGH!


damnit. i feel so alone now. i wanna do something silly now. no killing myself but just being out and about enjoying myself. i feel so cooped up being stuck here. I WANT TO BREATHE AGAIN! damnit. fuck,fuck,fuck,fuck,fuck.



argh. slap him til im awake. ROAR fucker.

well, i guess our class is getting together much more now. i suppose this will make the parting even harder. its not that im not gonna participate because of that but, i just wish we could really have a year together.. 6 months come and go like that. its hard to say goodbye. even right now.



and then to me, well, i've been thinking about us very much. i know you have this mental problem and all. you're fine when you're awake. its just that last night scared me so much. i didn't know how to control you anymore. it was like scary, for the first time because i knew what it was already.... i love you a lot. i cannot let you go yet. but somehow, its like you are already pushing me to the edge gradually. you told me that i should let go of you now because its coming back and you don't want to end like your ex. then who? you told me you're gonna work hard and marry me.. what is going to happen to this promise when you're pushing me away already. i know it. i can feel it. you can't be saying all this for no reason. you know it inside you. that was exactly how you treated your ex before you guys splitted. i don't know. i just don't understand.



i can't fanthom how will this end. i really wanna let go of you, my love, my life, my family, my studies and my friends. its just that... i don't know. i really don't know who i should talk to anymore. she's not that same girl anymore.. she's so... distant.. so guy orientated. ya. i know she is still there when we go to school together and all but its more of like because she needs a company and someone to hear all her shit. who is gonna hear mine? maybe it is like.. a new chapter, a new beginning. i don't know.. i can just cry now. but, im saving my tears. saving it for another day. im too tired to let any tear out. well, if you never read this, even better. i don't want you too. im just reflecting our r/s a lot these days. i don't know. you're never there anymore. you're not even there when i need you anymore.











seriously, where are you?

this is funny. for the first time, the whole class is eating mac's together. haha. although its nothing big, but at least more than half is eating together. so its not that bad right?


anyways, roy's being silly. he keeps thinking that i have another boy outside. DON'T BE SILLY! i can never do that to anyone cause i know how that feels and it really sucks... alot. its a really sour feeling that tears the heart. when you give everything to someone, you so do not wish to be cheated. same way, boy, i would never do that to you.

=) i heart my boy very much okay.


okay. that sounded ahlian-ish minus the typing style. lol. hmmm. anyways, i love the potato salad in school. its darn nice. lol. hmmm. what else is nice to blog about? oh yeah. today's math lesson is quite pathetic. cause its kinda boring again. oh wells. haha. hmmm. i heart my class! whoot!



LET'S GROOVE TO THE BEAT.mambo night.mambo night.! wheeeeeeee.



i wanna go play and dance. i heard its a fantastic homo club. i just love gays. they make such good bitching partners. lol!

i have to say that i am so proud of my team yesterday for communication skills. although its the last time we wil be collaborating together but, we did extremely well and we got commended by the teacher and the whole class.! woowheet! cheers to sheeren and liching for their hard work. they really did a lot this time round. i only wrote out the pointers for the slide. WHAHA. ultimate slacker but also did my sister's art.

MAMBO NIGHT.MAMBO NIGHT.when can i go? .... boo parents.


anyways, i think im pms-ing or just too tired. its like we're drifting far far far away. i don't know where is he anymore when i need someone. i feel so alone now. like as if im swimming in the sea for too long and i need someone to swim alongside with me.maybe i'll quit swimming in the sea and come up on land. i really think i need some time alone. im half the time worried and spending my time with him, not resting properly. he doesn't even understand. he only knows how to whine and say that im not spending enough time and all that fuck shit. as if he is the only one being tired. as if going to school needs no energy. as if he is the only one stressed in this fucked up world. as if he is the only one who needs someone there for him. what about me? im so sick and tired. i really am thinking of leaving him. it hurts me as much as it will hurt him but its just too much. he keeps pushing the blame to his work place and saying that it is giving him immense stress. so much so that he has no more time for me. can't take his break and meet me for awhile. i know i will get over it but i know he can't. that makes it even harder for me. he has gotten my soft spot and i am his. but it ain't working any more. its just draining the life out of me. i really don't know what i am doing beside him. to accompany or just being a friend.

haha. i forgot to celebrate the 100th post on my blog. yes. despite the age of the blog, it has only one hundred pathethic posts. bahh!!

anyways, pinky is lousy.. he has to send his phone to himself to repair. bahh pinky!! hahaha.. i have absolutely nothing to write... class was quite slack... bleahhs. what's new. haha. anyways,




HOORAYS to my 101st blogpost. haha

i have a very silly classmate. JINYOU. he is very very silly. i swear. full of shit and irritating-ness. hai. i have a fucking sore throat on the day that i have to do my AUDITION.
damnit......................................................................................................................................................




aiie. i love my class. so feel my enthusiasm. lol

I CAN PLAY HOUSE OF DEAD 2 IN CLASS NOW. ITS A RUNNING TREND IN CLASS AND IT HAS AFFECTED MEEEEEEE


just because im damn bored. seriously. im just too damn bored. bleahhs!

good, fun, something everyone should do, relatively healthy and filled with funny people.


OKAY! i went to clinic and dirty danced. i don't know why but i still think that dirty dancing is so much more fun the regular dancing. sounds wrong but i don't think it really is. anyways, i don't really like clinic. its too small but the cranberry vodka and whiskey coke is not too bad.. but i still would prefer the cranberrry vodka. =P anyways, class is boring and im absolutely switched off! BAHHS


gonna stay over at his house tonight. muhahaha.. i wanna go clubbing again, preferably not at clinic again cause its really boring. hmmm.i wanna go COCOLATTE! gosh.


I ABSOLUTELY LOVE RNB.rnb is the thing to dance to.WHAT ELSE CAN I DANCE TO BUT RNB? trance and techno is so fucking pathetic. sorry but that is what i have to say. anyways,anyways!! I SHALL GO TO HOME NEXT. heard its a wonderful chillout place. hmmm... play sounds fun.. lol

OH YA! before i forget! i was sitting at clinic and i saw this gay couple. lol. super cute! i love gays, i just don't know why. lol. guy A and B are boyfriends. A was dancing with this girl, their friend. B was so jealous that it was so funny cause B was just sitting there and sulking like crazy. i was telling roy about it and we were laughing it off. so cute! just can't stand it. the way he sat and all. after being sufficiently jealous, he decided to join them. he just butted into them and danced with them. oh ya. cause they were like dirty dancing and all. haha. B was like kissing A to tell the whole lot of girls that he was gay and stuff. quite funny. haha. then after which roy was speaking to A and A was like saying oh we're used to it already. so we don't really care about the public eyes. haha. SO CUTE. damn it. if only he was straight, cause he's cute to boot!


ahh damn it. there were a couple of cute guys. we were like bio-ing the guys and vice versa. OH ya! there was this crazy guy who danced like an idiot. silly,silly emo kid. he was like literally prancing around. quite funny though. lol!

oh wells, the silly things at clubbing that you see. i really should be more brave. stupid roy was dancing with ALL the girls that he can see. like some freaking buaya. haha.oh wells, he is. what was i thinking about. haha.

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dblo.club.club.dblo.club.club.club.club.club.club.club.club.club.club.DBLO!



DBL O rocks for poor female clubbers like ME. cause free entry and free flow with relatively good music. so yes! my i just wanna list has just ticked off one. im going with AMANDA and i don't know whether he is going along though. oh wells. silly jon is not going. so too bad. lol. i've not blogged in eons and now i am. haha.. anyways, im tired and sleepy. can't wait for food also. tomorrow's my audition for my school's IG. i 've no idea what to wear AND sing. damn it. and im suppose to skip school tomorrow. what the hell. haha.

anyways, CLUB CLUB CLUB CLUB!!

finally my itchy feet can go. haha.