man.. everything is like going wrong man. i don't know what's up but yeah. whatever. i really intend to move on from where i am now and be somebody that i wanna be.. i won't be free from troubles but at least i know im leading it the way i want it to be.. hmmm....

i may seem like im cheating myself and being greedy but.. oh wells.. this is like i don't know.. just random. i swear man..
oh wells..

im so bored bloggin here. i really am.. i wanna earn money and like lead comfortably. im sick of like having no money in my pocket... makes me feel like crap. i'fta like borrow and all that. i can lend you money but i don't like to borrow from people.. just my fucking ego man.. i swear.. its just my fucking ego... darn... ohwells..



aiie... im in school now.. at least it relieves me like stress.. haha. something to concentrate on... im boreds. imboreds!!!!!!!


heh.. IM PART OF THE PUSH POP GANG! join us for protection against other sweets.. haha.. fucklame. lol. BTH!


cause i,
cause i will follow too..
i swear..

i have such a strong instinct that my phone was STOLEN and not lost. damnit. its not even my phone to begin with? and what the hell is wrong with you? its your own brother's phone you know. my gosh. this world is really so fucked up man. goodness.~ i can so slap your face if i can find evidence that it is you. i seriously could. such an asshole..


anyways, shopping on sat wasn't that a success cause i couldn't buy some other stuff that i wanted to. hmm.. BUT. i bought an awesome pair of shades that i so fucking love! and i have like earrings... yeahness! hmmm.. yeah... i spent like 8.80 on cab to bugis.. then 18 on my shades... 5 on my earrings... er... 20 on shit... and i cant remember what else i spent on... er.... i really can't remember.. damn..


oh wells.. had fun.. that was most important i guess...


and er.. ryan! im sorry for bursting at you just now.. wasn't feeling too good.. sorry dude. =))

well, good news first... IM GOING CLUBBING TONIGHT. with ken, amanda, her, cerlyn and HIM! great fun! and er... free drinks.. what's more to say man! haha..


bad news... well... i don't know.. i was talking to amanda the other day and i was telling her i really want to be single now cause i don't know whether i can handle the relationship anymore. i love him. i still do but i just want to be single man. its like so much out there and being in a relationship just RESTRICTS me. gosh... sian diao.

now waiting for my parents to come home so that i can go out.. waiting for cash..


im missing you,
i don't know why...

i really shouldn't be
but i am..=/

there i go again. i hoped and wished so badly that i'll get some personal time but seriously, what was i thinking? it wil never happen. so what if its a special day? it never mattered as much as an off day which was a sacred day cause you get to sleep in and i have to go down to your house to meet you and end up being in your house.

you say you don't have money but yet you are still there.. gees. what's the difference? its always on days that are particularly special that you like to do all these nonsense. i really think that you never hurt me intentionally but unintentionally cause you don't even understand me anymore.

oh wells. forget it. it has always been this way right?

hell my heart hurts but you can't hear me scream cause its too broken.

that im broken deep down inside. im not just tired, im exhausted. i've stayed up all night for the past few days, not sleeping well and in the end, it turns out to be like this again.

oh wells. im so tired.. i really am.. im just caught in the middle.. i don't want it yet its gonna pull out my heart if i do. oh wells.. im so tired.. i want to sleep.. like now...=((((









save me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1

i have a xiao bai and a xiao bai bai. HAWHAW. kaserine is my new xiao xiao bai and he is my xiao bai. hawhaw. i love the 2 of em to smithereens. haha.

i shall take a photo of xiaoxiao bai soon and post it uppp. i shall go chippy's and eat their beer battered fish thing. haven't had that in chippy's in a gazilion years man! xiao xiao bai is working there! whoppee~ i can get it from her. haha. that poor thing is now staying at chua choa kang. heard that she's gonna get a home soon.. gonna have crash parties there man. hawhaw.


that silly boy of mine wants to lure his enemies to the police by letting himself get beaten up. how fucking dumb. i promise i will slit his throat if he does anything stupid. that stupid boy. gonna punch him in the face man. arsehole. BAHH.

i feel like going up to his enemies and fucking slap them in their fucking faces. such stupid immature idiots. SERIOUSLY!

yes, im sure that sounded right. anyways, im in class typing away when im suppose to hide my damn screen. actually i am but never mind. =DD





hawhaw! i have a NEW friend! yay! haha. her name is kaserine.. haha.. and HE mistaken it to be catherine.. that silly boy. nonetheless, i love kas.. she is so nice. haha.. that poor thing just broke up. don't wory! we're here for you~ =)





anyhow! i took a photo with a duck! ahah.. okay. not a real duck but those mascot thing. the person inside was cute too.. NOT TO MENTION.. LOL. anyways, im gonna bail out now. ttyl!

LOVE THAT DUCK PHOTO MAN.

i tell you, im the world's best self embarassing person man. i can so ruin my reputation like that. like really like that. i should stop be so over reactive. haha. but i can't help it. i kinda like laughing at myself. okay. that IS dumb. :( oh wells...


today was quite funny.. cheryl jumping at the peusdo worms... haha..


sometimes, i feel like behind this mask. i just can't be myself. its like experience taught me that the world just cannot accept me for who i am. i always have to mix different parts together. its sad isn't? sometimes, i just really want to be myself. when i want to act stupid and no one will laugh at me. when i want to be smart and no one will say that im a smart aleck. oh wells. this is reality. sterotyping is like EVERYWHERE. even with him, its not like i can totally be myself. i have to be this girl that suits his every need. its just sad you know? but one thing is that i can have fun when i want to when im around him. but he doesn't understand me that well. i guess no one can. not even my friends. close or far..... i just hope that if i ever change my guy, i just want him to understand me. that is VERY important besides all the necessities. =)

right, enough of being emo tional. today's topic is on jumping to conclusions. quite dumb la but bo pian. sian. im such a skeez. =(

right, right. i think im gonna have to go down to raffles city later. coolio.. ttyl.

hawhaw. i like that laughing text-ing style. hawhaw.

anyways, i was at baby jonathan's house on saturday. that silly boy has forgotten us. =( but he had fun and so did we. he KISSED ME.. whahaha. i got kissed by the silly boy. gosh i love him. when i have a kid, i hope my kid will be as smart or even better. but if its neither, im just as thankful. =))

sheesh.. im suppose to go to zouk this friday buttttttttt................................................................. oh wells. bo pian. a promise is a promise. i can't break a promise. anyways,


we watched my wife is a gangster 3. hawhaw. shu qi is fucking cool in that show. if i was licenced to kill, i would want to kill like her man!! the swords and all that shyte. ROARR. im waiting to watch transformers!! robot in disguise. whahah. oh wells. im bored. really.. i am...


hmmm...... i wanted to blog about some stuff but i kinda forgot.. oh wells.. im gonna pull him go club then.. cause i can only go when he goes.. hahah. IM EVIL.... -__-""""

i like the face -_________- so froggish. haha. i have a secret liking for keropi.. i don't know why but apparently yes i do. heh.

oh wells, can you spot the trend? my paragraphs are getting more shorter and more spastically. haha. ohkay im gonna end then...




i love all of you. really, i do. =)