i tell you, im the world's best self embarassing person man. i can so ruin my reputation like that. like really like that. i should stop be so over reactive. haha. but i can't help it. i kinda like laughing at myself. okay. that IS dumb. :( oh wells...


today was quite funny.. cheryl jumping at the peusdo worms... haha..


sometimes, i feel like behind this mask. i just can't be myself. its like experience taught me that the world just cannot accept me for who i am. i always have to mix different parts together. its sad isn't? sometimes, i just really want to be myself. when i want to act stupid and no one will laugh at me. when i want to be smart and no one will say that im a smart aleck. oh wells. this is reality. sterotyping is like EVERYWHERE. even with him, its not like i can totally be myself. i have to be this girl that suits his every need. its just sad you know? but one thing is that i can have fun when i want to when im around him. but he doesn't understand me that well. i guess no one can. not even my friends. close or far..... i just hope that if i ever change my guy, i just want him to understand me. that is VERY important besides all the necessities. =)

right, enough of being emo tional. today's topic is on jumping to conclusions. quite dumb la but bo pian. sian. im such a skeez. =(

right, right. i think im gonna have to go down to raffles city later. coolio.. ttyl.