by monday, i have to make an important decision. this is so important that im actually worried about it and going through serious thinking. (do not even think of jacking me emil.) i don't know what the outcome is.. i don't know what on earth is gonna happen. all i know is that i have shed the tears and now is left the battle between my head and my heart. all i know is that my heart says not to go but my head says that im better off alone. damn. i hate such decisions. shit.. i can start to feel the weight on my heart now.

heh.. today is a boring day.. computing.. i don't even know no shit about it man. wasted my fare to school.. should try to appeal for not coming to computing.. yeahh.. as if i could! im damn bored!!! fuck.. anyways, cheryl told me not to wear this fat pants im wearing to school ever again. okay... i swore and i cannot cause if not she will take off my pants.. damn! lol. anyways, i don't know what to do now... hmm... i hope i can cut class today again... lol.. hmmm. ya.. i wanted to blog about something but i have forgotten. lol. hmm...


help me! i don't want to stay in school today!!!!!!!!!!!!

haa.. i went to watch a movie today.. i wanted to watch the muay thai show BUT the stupid ticketing officer gave me the tickets to halloween instead. i so nearly fainted. im not the horrow movie kind so when i saw the title, i nearly died. i swear. it was so gory! i was like.. wtf.. hide my eyes.. omfg.. wth... hide my eyes.. hide my eyes..

HALF THE FUCKING TIME, I COVERED MY EYES. i so wasted his 9 bucks although we got that 12% discount cause he had an UOB card or something..

im like cb la.. omfg. im so gonna complain to the ticketing office.. i swear man.. but he said nvm.. it didn't matter.. ya! cause he enjoys such show.. damnit~ haha. oh wells.. compromising i suppose~

hmmm.. halloween.. such a sad story actually but the ending was like can you please hurry end it cause its getting lame already? kind of ending. yeah... this kid called michael myers had a very disturbing childhood and started to murder little animals which his hate eventually grew towards humans like this bully at school then his family except his mother and his baby sister. so, he was locked up in this children assylum... then around 15 years later, cause he was too big already, needed to be transfered elsewhere. cause he was taunted by the policemen, he decided to murder them.. surprise, surprise... then this janitor that bullshited him like 15 years ago was murdered then he tried to like say oh im not that bad.. i took care of you and all that crap. yeah.. then he went on a killing rampage when he went to find his sister... then his sister's friends were teasing him out loud then he decided to kill the people who adopted his sister and her friends and her friends' bf who taunted him. then he went to "pick" his sister up.. he tried to show his sister that she was his sister through a photo but REFUSED to talk.. like... wtf.. so obviously his sister wouldn't recognise that cause she was a baby when he went to the assylum so she figured to try to escape which instead enraged him... dumb... then there was this chase about him and the sister and the psychologist who was with him since the start of the case.. so ya.. ending? he died and the sister shot him to death cause she was too freaked out.. and when she shot him, she was just screaming her lungs out. that's the end.. yeah i swear.. that's the end. no more no less.. dumb eh?

oh wells! i miss my baby.. lol. i miss ahyok!!! haha..

crying doesn't really seem to suit me cause i knocked my head and of which is giving me a splitting headache and my swollen eyes are making me sleepy.. damn! oh wells.. do you think its selfish if you know that the one you love could obviously have a better life abroad without you but yet you made a decision that keeps him right here and have a suckier life. what do you think? im really confused between this 2 options... OH WELLS.

the uncle at the fishball noodle stall ALWAYS makes my day. his service to us, even though we aer younger than him, are always sincere. he tries his best to smile at us every single time and its touching to know that there are such people in the world who tries to make someone else's eating time more joyous. =D i shall patronize that stall more often. really. it just makes your day so much more happier and loved. =D man. im feeling so happy today. lol. it just feels good today. i don't know.. am looking forward to today! =)

im just so out of my mind now.. seriously.. finding one good friend who can really go all costs to help you is rare nowadays and i have to thank one great person. han. although i've said that like a milion times but you really did me a HUGE favour. thank you lots. =)

omg. i am so fucking pissed off.. the fucking agency dude called me and say that he is doing shit for me. like fuck you alright. you all hear wrongly become my fault. call me and scold me. like piss off okay. cb. i know i delay payment la.. my fault but whatever alright. FUCKING SHIT.

and you, can't you be more understanding? i think we should stop here.


FUCKED UP NIGHT!

so, as i was saying. online frauds... such an asshole aren't they? hmmm... i don't know.. i just hope our friendship will not go anymore than that.. im afraid that something new would happen... seriously..

i am shocked by the amount of online frauds nowadays. its just like the most stupid thing anyone can do especially thinking that people will not take action. this is absolutely intolerable. seriously. damn! what's wrong with this society? hmmm. im in class, bored as usual. at least there is something to eat. im also freezing and he's not at work yet. damn.. don't know what he is up to... =(

im anything but ordinary. im trying to save the world for you.. taken from the song Ordinary - train.


love that song! song of ze moment. lol

hola! im back in class again. boring. i missed my test but im still in class.. AIN'T I A GOOD GIRL? haha. hemi asked me to help her work at SR today but i guess not. lol. lazy although its easy money. anyways, there's too many things in life to blog about so.. i don't know what to talk about.. yeah.. so.. im trying and hoping to be closer to my classmates cause it will do me a lot more better.. *shrugs* i miss hanging out with all my friends. im afraid of the trap of relationships cause in the end you will start to lose on how to make friends.. like the skill just seems to disappear.. oh wells!

GAHH. im the fat. i tried on skinny jeans and my butt and my tighs look like they came from an elephant! im so obsessed with my weight now cause im pmsing.lol. i don't know why but i seriously need to lose all this weight but i do think its the water weight for this time.. I HOPE.. cause i have been drinking gassy drinks all this while yo! haha. shit man~ im fat fat fat!!! eeerrrrgggghhh. someone please squeeze my fats out man!

roarr! never sit beside filipinos on a sunday train. i swear man! i was sitting next to one and she kept leaning onto me like im some pole you know! i feel like slapping her face alright! like wth! heh~ and her hair! goodness knows how clean her hair is man. sians. so i was trying to edge her with my arm that hey! you're too close bitch! heh. i hate that stupid behaviour... damn!


anyways, had a HUGE fight at novena yesterday... but made up.. so not so bad la huh? lol...



STUPID JOHN. I DON'T REALLY UNDERSTAND YOUR TAG BUT MAI LAME ALRIGHTS?

im very much comtemplating going to school. i don't know why but i lost interest. can someone motivate me before i get kicked out of school? seriously, i know i need to study but im just so damn fucking lazy. shit. what has happened to me? maybe i need to start sleeping early everynight from now on and kick away that lazy habit of mine.

GOD PLEASE HELP ME!

i wanted to complain about something!!

oh yes!!

ITS NOT AN AH LIAN BLOG. okay..
silly bitch of mine said that this looked so lian.. LIKE WTF YO! haha. man.. ain't gonna club this week.. kinda wierd.. never mind.. maybe next week? we'll see how yo! haha.


i love ya'll! feel like speaking black now.... lol whatever. that sounded so racist.. lol.

let's see..... i kinda forgot what i wanted to blog suddenly... yeah.. im just sleepy in class.. trying to listen to happy songs so that i won't be soooo bored.. lol..


maybe i don't missyou anymore. =)) i don't want to either. lol



roarr! maybe meeting him later. don't know why he can't sleep last night either.. heh!

watched mr woodcock today.. sean william scott is also the stiffler in the american pie show. lol.. anyways,! im just intrigued by my emotions.. how they changed so fast.. oh wells.. i realised that its easy to like someone else so quickly.. damn...










maybe, im beginning to missyou.

well, for the first time in class, like left 5 people only for the thrid meeting. lol. like 12 of us left during the second break. it was quite funny. lol. oh wells, but it was quite fun i suppose. anyhow! i watched balls of fury yesterday. it was quite funny. i love it when christopher walken acts as a dumb villian. haha. he wasn't exactly dumb but he had this funny accent. haha. well, maggie q is FUCKINGhot as usual. oh wells.


ahh damnit.. why do i have to know that you **ke me? shit.

i didn't meet a belly dancer. lol. anyways, i was at plush then dxo last night. plush has GOOD music but horribly small dancefloor. DXO has a larger dancefloor but horrible music. why can't they like merge or something. damnit.. dxo plays songs that i can play better from my LAPTOP. shit man. haha. and the fucker at the bar for ladies free flow drinks at DXO was like pouring half of my liqour and there was NO FUCKING TASTE of the damn liqour.. i mcm drinking coke.. fuck sia. nearly wanted to strangle him sia! haha.. then the glass also damn small.. so shitty.. at least plush is like better? drink also can taste and then the bartender also friendlier. haha. hmmm .. the bartender was damn cute also. anyways!!!


YESTERDAY WAS MY MOST HORRIBLE DAY OF MY LIFE. okay. maybe not as bad as the day when i first got my menses. but yesterday, everybody managed to like totally pissed me off wonderfully. in school was my friend, after that the bloody faci.. then.... whoelse can it be!! damnit man. but after going to club last night.. i felt more relaxed. lol! haha


see! clubbing can be used as a therapy. lol.. might be going play next thurs.. love that club man! hahahahah

cheryl was right.. i SHOULD have scolded you from the beginning.. all you care is about yourself.. what a friend. damn shit.

im school after like a gazillion years. haha. anyways, am super tired cause i was talking to my godbrother online til lik 2 am.. -_- learnt many new things.. about the past in fact.. lol... oh wells. im bored. class is shit.. oh wells... am gonna go plush tonight. thanks for tix teri! haha.. his friend is working in the marketing dept of plush.. haha... =))

screams : i love my river island bag!
my hottie.

i just posed for my sister's newsletter assignment. not too bad i say. quite fun! haha..

pictures soon!!

how long have like not seen you and it had to be when we were taking the same bus going to nearly the same places. haha i missed you so much! thank goodness you don't read my blog, i think. haha. even if you do, it doesn't really matter now, i think. =)) just don't make things become awkward and im fine. haha. anyways! what happened just now was that i saw my godbrother.. and i used to have this HUGE crush on him for like 2 years plus and then i got SO disappointed when he started dating someone else cause i thought he liked me too last time. but anyways, guess i was too sensitive. haha. then there was this one song... bbmak, ghost of you and me. i remember we were conferencing with 2 other people at one time and the other 2 fell asleep.. then he was asking me whether i liked bbmak's ghost of you and me.. i was likeYES! it was my favourtie song of that time. but when he suddenlt played the song. it was just too sudden that i didn't recoginse that song.. then he was like.. -_- your favourite song lei.. haha.. then i was like OH YA.. shit.. malu.. haha..

oh wells. im listening to that song now and its true that the person you truly like, will always have a soft spot in your heart. =))

for starters, i was early this morning.. although i felt fat! haha. ohoh! i have a new river island clutch bag.. post pictures soon! my new love! haha. hmmm.. oh yes, when the train was approaching AMK station, he was flagging for the darn train. i was like.. OMFGOMFGOMFGOMFGOMFGOMFGOMFGOMFG. haha. it was hilarious.. but i couldn't laugh cause its like kinda wierd to laugh alone. haha. then, met mel and dickson on the bus to school. AND the MOST interesting part? i saw this guy with darn nice body figure. he was muscular but everything looked darn right! damn! haha. then after that, i saw this cute guy walking down the overhead bridge.

HOW OTHER NICE CAN SUCH A MORNING BE? i can just so tell that today is gonna be a good day. and my father gave me an extra ten for school. yipee!!!



anyways, im hoping to head down to plush this fri even without cash cause i just wanna like look see at the club! whoppee!



i love everyone, especially God for such a smooth day!

this is how i feel.. not crying just heh!

there WAS a single apple cinammon ate by me in that bag there...
yumm! 6 chocolatey doughnuts including one strawberry heart and spicy cheese?

me, benson and hemi.