当你选择了云的距离
就让我自私做決定
冲破天际飞去
排山倒海崩塌的回忆
也许我可以袭击我的心
痛得不能自己
或许你以为把这一座城市抛开
就可以纠结伤害
却不明白
我需要你的爱
不管多少阻碍
不求什么未来
不管命运会怎么安排
我会用眼泪洗去所有的不堪
狠狠地把心痛了断
深深地把一切重来
我需要你的爱
像掉进了深海
也像坠落悬崖
找不到地方可以逃开
别让那些谎言把爱给活埋
当心碎成一块一块
当爱碎成一断一断
我会等待
你的爱
哦-哦----~~
排山倒海崩塌的回忆
也许我可以袭击我的心
痛得不能自己
或许你以为把这一座城市抛开
就可以纠结伤害
却不明白
我需要你的爱
不管多少阻碍
不求什么未来
不管命运会怎么安排
我会用眼泪洗去所有的不堪
狠狠地把心痛了断
深深地把一切重来
我需要你的爱
像掉进了深海
也像坠落悬崖
找不到地方可以逃开
别让那些谎言把爱给活埋
当心碎成一块一块
当爱碎成一断一断
我会等待
我会等待
我会等待
别让那些谎言把爱给活埋
当心碎成一块一块
当爱碎成一断一断
我会等待


this song is by FIR that i like very much at the moment... if only you could understand chinese........

uhh... im so sleepy cause i have been watching shows and not getting enough rest.. and im working hard to pay off my debts cause i just have so many on hand... DAMN... oh,oh.. im trying to convince my dad to apply a visa card for me so that i don't need to be so stress when i need money... haha. but pathetically, i have a max cap of 500 dollars to spend.. but its good also cause i don't want to cause my family to be in like heavy debts and stuff.. =P.. HOWEVER, my father says he needs to calculate the amount of money that he gives me every month... excluding my transport passes, he is only giving me 380 of spending money AND pocket money.. -__- so means i still have to work.. -_-. but actually i don't cause if i have that visa.. i can spend some pre money first but still have to pay back later.. -_-.....


haha. better then nothing i suppose! oh wells.. haha...back to lesson.. will blog more when i can think of something blog off.. HAHAHA

dear all,
don't you realise that singapore has a lack of good looking guys to look at? and guys with character are hardly visible nowadays. why oh why has this fallen upon this generation?? and why are the good looking ones either gay or attached? and why don't they even bother to cast another eye on the more average one like me? damn...


me and my sister, rabiah , were complaining over the lack of good looking guys in school.. . the good looking ones are countable by hand.. okay, this may vary based on different standards.. like i like guys with small eyes and are taller than me.. so the pop singer Rain will very much appeal to me but i don't know about the others.. ahahahha
oh wells.. damn.. now when im free, no guys available to look at.. ahahha...

hello girlfriends! lets go boy watching!

i so need a psp now to occupy my time during the boring trips to school although i don't really attend school.. hmm.. work at anthropology is really going well.. the pay is good.. the people are quite friendly... hmm.. i know one of the boss so that boss is nice.. the gm speaks in a cute honkie accent. lol. quite a fun group of people but have yet to mingle well with them.. yepp..

oh wells.. i met this guy called edwin at anthropology.. i must say that he did say somethings that leave quite an impression on me.. lol.. oh wells..

i love life now.. freeer than before.. i need to say goodbye to you and hello world.

well,its finally over.. its the break for me and i can finally breathe without anyone panting down my neck.. im so free now that i really don't know what to do... sad is sad la.. but what to do.. i guess its the only way that i can live my life that i want it to be... if not, i will be so caught up with just one person..


hello world, im back.

dear girlies, let's go st james on wed night because their drinks are really power. with 5 coupons that they give you, you can get 1 jug of housepour. which i s a very good deal when you go with A LOT of females. although sometimes their music is a bit off our standards but it doesn't really matter when you have friends that you can have fun with... AHAHAHHA.

love, tinana

ahahah. i was linking up my blog favorites onto my Firefox browser.. when i saw my girl, nana, had this random passerby shooting at her saying that she is a bimbo and bitch and all.. damn this people know no end and the problem is.. even if they knew her.. how much did they know to have such an evaluation? some people just are plain random.. OH WELLS. so stupid..

anyways, if this was to ever ever happen to me, all i will do is totally ignore.. i mean, they have their prerogatives and so do i. and mine is to not give a damn~ ahahha. i mean i will feel anger and all that but yeah, TOTALLY WHATEVER. i don't want to be childish with them and i don't want to go to their level if they can't come up to me. so yeahh.

ROCK ON THE BABES WHO HAVE BEEN SHOT BY THIS RANDOM SHITHEADS.

st james was so boring last night.. i was so just not in the mood to club but because he wanted to go... i couldn't say no and it would be dangerous for me to like leave him alone.. who knows what might happen.. oh wells... hmmm.. skipped school again.. im so gonna get a letter for this week.. fuck.

i don't know why i am behaving like this.. i know you do love me but i just cannot trust you! when my friend saw you with another girl last night, why did you hide or turn away? don't even lie that you didn't see her because you know you saw her. aiyah! i don't know la.. im just so not in the mood for anything now.. im gonna leave class early anyways, so im just gonna go find you but im just so tightly wound inside that i cannot take it anymore.. my heart is like tight, tied up so tight that i can't breathe.. i can feel the pain right now..... -_-



FUCK LA.

omfg. i had so much fun with cerlyn yesterday! we were doing some bid for youth olympic games thing to be hold in singapore. oh wells. then we plus her friend walked from taka to wisma to far east.. haha. cer and i bought the same black cardigan.. for 16.90.. there was some offer apparently.. lol.. then, after which we headed down to bugis.. i bought earrings and a nail colour from missha.. but i regret buying the colour. i didn't realise that the colour was kinda transparent and what was worst about it was that the colour was shimmery. i wanted something opaque and striking.. like really neon yellow.. yeah.. felt kinda cheated although it was only 3 bucks.. lol.. but earrings were a good deal.. 2 for 5 bucks.. well, i guess what i spent most on was food.. we had dinner at fish and co.. had the periperi catch whilst she had the periperi prawns with her soda thing. lol.. we spent time talking about everything... spent say.... 30 over there? yeah.. then we went to village to shop around.. then we went to v8 cafe for some low tea... lol.. apparently, there was this staff whom i used to work with and he served us.. well, i told cerlyn about how an asshole he was and she was like saying i should order an ice chocolate without chocolate and then when it arrives, i shall tell him that i wanted an ice chocolate without ice and then complain.. haha.. the sillyness! anyways, we had food.. my dear ex colleague gave us a 15% discount which really saved us on the unnecessary taxes.. lol.. well, but then again.cerlyn did MANY stupid things as usual.. lol.. if you wanna know, ask me... i shan't ruin her reputation her shall i? haha.. silly bitch.. i love her!!

she's like my really sole good friend that i can ever rely on. haha.!

im running away from this messed up place. im breaking free. i am hurt.... so hurt that i'm speechless... i don't think there's happiness anymore.. you never understood how i felt.... wheni say this, all you know is push the blame... saying whether i understand you.. you never wanted to hear me talk before.. maybe... its me to blame. but im sick and tired.. maybe im gonna give up.. i know im happier without you yet i cannot leave without you.. this time round, its time to choose.. i know probably i will let you go but you will turn astray.. maybe i should be selfish after being so selfless towards you. but you never understood nor hear me speak...


im disappearing without you,
yet my disappearance is good.

haha. school was good. =)) well, maybe andy is right.. i should smile more and make myself more approachable to my classmates.. maybe the problem is not with them.. its probably with me.. =P

thanks andy.. i'll try to smile more often then.. LOL.

OMG. i just bought this mnm chocolate toy thing for like a freaking $3.35!!! -_-.. i thought it was like 2 plus or something cause like they didn't put the price there.. oh wells... HE BETTER APPRECIATE IT~~ roarr.. haha.. so ex.. ESP WHEN IM TOTALLY BROKE YO~ haha.. oh wells.. i shall take a picture of it.. and you know what? the toy is not even bigger than my palm.. okay.. maybe my palm size.. but it was so cute~ damn.. lol. and totally green! how not even more should he not appreciate it.. lol... alrights.. i should be heading off now.. gotta go for a babysitting gig yo~ haha.. i wonder why people in america can allow teens to be babysitters when singaporeans are so uptight about this shit. OH WELLS.

happyweekend~

Temperament
Flexible
Nothing seems to bother you - you sail through life crisis free. It's not that your life doesn't have its ups and downs, it's just that you handle everything without unnecessary drama and antics. You approach each day fresh, not worrying about yesterday or tomorrow. You are confident that you can handle anything that comes your way and experience has shown that you are absolutely right about this.

Interests
Balanced
You are methodical, orderly and precise. You enjoy life most when it's uncluttered, predictable and certain. You have a noticeable propensity for detail and even the tiniest bit of disruption throws off your well maintained balance. In a world that can leave you feeling out of control and chaotic, you are a constant for yourself and for others. When all else seems to be changing, you tend to remain the same.

Amusement
Thoughtful
You are easily stressed out and overwhelmed - you need to take care of yourself first and foremost. Because you tend to be self reflective, you know your limits quite well and must remember to not exceed those limits. When you overwhelm your life with obligations and responsibilities, you tend to shut down and go into yourself even further. Take some time to find your serenity and kick back your feet.

Passion
Physical
You are a cuddle bug - from a warm hug shared with your best friend to steamy sex with your partner, you enjoy every bit of human contact that you can get. You demonstrate your love for others most fluidly through physical one-on-one contact and you feel the most loved when you are being touched. You feel disconnected when you are physically isolated from others. You're a people person and a lover of all things human.

after i cry because i am sad, i seem to get a splitting headache that tells me that this is not what im meant to do. like sadness should be in me. like i can have a choice.. i have done so many things lately.. i have been through a lot this season of my life.....

Rascal Flatts - What hurts the most

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don’t bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I’m not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I’m ok
But that’s not what gets me

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin’ to do

It’s hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I’m doin’ It
It’s hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I’m alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin’ with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

Not seeing that loving you
That’s what I was trying to do 

im offically hooked onto mahjongg.. the pair matching game! roarr... hmm.. i watched gameplan over the weekend after much contemplation of what to do on saturday.. well, it was a good show i suppose.. lol. it was those kind of pacifier show cept that vin diseal is so much hotter! =X. anyways, after exiting the theatre, we saw this uncle outside this club called scarlet city.. his hand was bleeding, therefore concluding that he was chased out because of a club.. oh wells. retarded uncles... LOL. yeah. concluding my thusvery boring weekend.. we were suppose to head down to st james on sun but ended up going to marina south for food! yummy-ness! but~ the worst part was it was raining so badly, we had quite a difficult time to go back there. OH WELLS. last night, headed out for supper but ended up having a very bad tummy. sorry for spoiling the fun. =S. yeah. oh wells. roarr.. my hand's feeling kinda spasmatic now.. like i can't press some of the keys properly.. shity................. its either the keys or my hand... DAMN.

i've read about the british people who have humiliated the poor trishaw driver. im like wtf britain people? okay, they are like the snottiest bunch of us all.. shit this people. i really look down on em.. okay, i shan't generalize.. the specific 3 of them. really.. disgusted! ewwwwww.!

i just passed the 200th post mark... shout hooray!! haha...

i have two spoilers that i know about.. lol.. tell me all about it! i hate spoilers. i know who's the winner of the pcd auditions.. damnit.. and melissa S is so not the winner.. she was like fifth or something.. FUCK. she's like the best la.. what's wrong with the audience.. damnit.. nvm.. i shall not be a spoiler... ROARR>.


OH,OH! i know that my birthday is gonna be a blast NEXT year cause im gonna get a chalet planned by him for me! whoppeedeedee.. lol.. im happy.. im inviting a lot people.. shower me with love and liqour.. let's pull the chalet down yo! haha... can liase with him if you want.. lol.. he's looking for co-partners to help sponser and make the chalet happen.. damnit.. im appealing for my own chalet.. LOL

oh,oh! i watched the pcd auditions last night.. ROARR.. sexy~ haha. i loved it.. i was at his house watching it.. then after that, i began to walk sexy like them.. lol.. got a lil high though.. i cannot stand it.. its just so sexy and hot! im rooting for melissa s with him.. SHE'S LIKE THE DAMN HOTTEST ONE OVER THERE. they should just eliminate the rest and just pick her.. lol...

right and here i am stuck in school again and my cbox has turned into a random fighting nonsensical because of emil. haha! i cannot not jack emil. he is like the thing to jack about.. i don't know why emil, but i promise that i still love you aite? haha. oh wells. i love my friends.. have to go out soon since now i have the time and i need to make friends in class.. although they are all so ah lian-ish and ah beng-ish and slightly uncouth.. maybe its just me. im too antisocial i suppose.. =S oh wells... emil the jackass.. lol.. my hand's tired from typing.. shit.. im lazy.