im super lazy to update my private blog.

thank you for calling me last night out of the blue but at least i thrashed things out with you and i didn't have to cry myself to sleep anymore or even force myself to sleep.. although im still absolutely stunned and disappointed that you have a gf so fast and you tried to hide it for me.. but i guess its time for me to move on.. no point of me waiting.. like you say, if we're meant to be, we're meant to be..

TIME TO FIND A NEW PARTNER! haha. i need to shower someone with love..
but quite seriously, im quite glad that i didn't book the chalet..

haha.

haa.. the first meal of the day at 6.36... spicy wedges.. i seem to have lost my appetite for food.. i guess this is good... can lose many many weight. LOL. but quite sian la.. don't feel like eating at all.. its like... there's too much running through my brain that i have no time to process food thoughts at all.. shit.. i really hate this feeling.. oh barnacles!

hmmm.. let's see.. i got my intro for pp done and i have 2 books on hand right now to research with.. one of them even has SWOT.. which is very good.. i don't have to take it off the net...





okay. im bored. that's why im blogging...

haaa. cerlyn promised that whenever i update, she will update.. let's see how long she upkeep this.. i bet after like 3 days, she will be like naaaa.. don't update le la.. LOL.


sian.. im really ^ confused now.. fuck

hmm.

update on rota bomb. woohoohoo!




cerlyn yeo. this is update that you want... NAH. hahaha..

i miss you. not you cerlyn yeo, someone else.. don't bhb please.LOL

zomg.. now i know why im so emo yesterday.. some basket person... totally ruined my day.. i hope this person won't ruin it again.. if not.... PFFTT.. im quitting man!

cerlyn is so shit ass funny.. don't know why i felt so emo yesterday and today morning i feel so damn awake. damnit..

whee.. cerlyn attracts ah wang alike people. LOL. was suppering with cerlyn at central. fucking hell. one guy with this bowl hair cut came up to her and asked if she can make friend with him.. cerlyn was like what the fuck.. no? hahahahah.. he fucking looks like a ah wang la.. ccb..



CERLYN YEO = the attracter, of ah wangs.

XTINA LIM = the confusioner, of locked up souls.



fucking hell.. bitch made me laugh one of the good laughs in my entire duration since god knows when. LOL. love my bitch, mah sista from anotha mutha ya'll!

okay. i think i am being too much for saying what i said in those previous posts. what my bitch said was true... hmm...

sorry for whatever defaming thing i said to you. you may not accept and whatever but! its sincere and i wanna apologize for it.

this song post below is specially for you, roy.

I found the pieces in my hand
They were always there
It just took some time for me to understand
You gave me words I just can't say
So if nothing else
I'll just hold on while you drift away

Cause everything you wanted me to hide
Is everything that makes me feel alive

CHORUS:
The cities grow the rivers flow
Where you are I'll never know
But I'm still here
If you were right and I was wrong
Why are you the one who's gone
And I'm still here

I'm still here

You've seen the ashes in my heart
You smile the widest when I cry inside and my insides blow apart
I try to wear another face
Just to make you proud
Just to make you put me in my place

But everything you wanted from me
Is everything that I could never be

CHORUS:
The cities grow the rivers flow
Where you are I'll never know
But I'm still here
If you were right and I was wrong
Why are you the one who's gone
And I'm still here

Maybe tonight it's gonna be alright
I will get better
Maybe today it's gonna be okay
I will remember

I held the pieces of my soul
I was shattered
And I wanted you to come and make me whole
Then I saw you yesterday
But you didn't notice
You just walked away

Cause everything you wanted me to hide
Is everything that makes me feel alive

CHORUS:
The cities grow the rivers flow
Where you are I'll never know
But I'm still here
If you were right and I was wrong
Why are you the one who's gone
And I'm still here

The lights go out the bridges burn
Once you go you can't return
But I'm still here
Remember how you used to say
I'd be the one to run away
But I'm still here

I'm still here

picture time!

this my friends, is called stinko.. spot the lobster in the bowl. its in the shop pet. so cute! many silly customers try to put their fingers inside and stuff. -_-

oh,oh! did i mention that im blogging at work? im now working at some really cool place with internet access in the entire building.. LOVE IT MAN.. but the connection can be really bad at times.. sooo.. if you see me signing in and out of msn, pardon my... disruption? LOL.. lame.. i know.. i brought condor heroes to work.. the singapore version.. coolios! then i won't be so bored... hahahha.

so, tell me truely, what am i to you?

What am I to you
Tell me darling true
To me you are the sea
Vast as you can be
And deep the shade of blue

When your feeling low
To whom else do you go
See I'd cry if you hurt
I'd give you my last shirt
because I love you so

If my sky should fall
Would you even call?
I've opened up my heart
I never want to part
I'm giving you the ball

When I look in your eyes
I can feel butterflies
I will love you when you're blue
But tell me darling true
What am I to you

Now if my sky should fall
Would you even call
I've opened up my heart
I never want to part
I'm giving you the ball

When I look in your eyes
I can feel the butterflies
But could you find the love in me
Would you carve me in a tree
Don't fill my heart with lies

I will love you when you're blue
But tell me darling true
What am I to you

started work at buttcheeks today... really enjoyed myself although i have to push myself OUT of my comfort zone.. aaghir is fun.. we started using the kiap thing to fight.. what kind of boss will do that with you? so damn stupid la.. but it was a whole lot of fun.. dodo dropped by.. her blue stockings were pretty! =D.


damnit.. i cannot stand it anymore.. so fucking irritating... shit man.. i really bth liao...

I NEED MONEY LA FUCK.

zomg.. within like a short span of some days, like so many things happened?

first up, nearly got stalked yesterday while walking home.. so freaky! damnit.. really scarring me now... pfftt.. basket. feel like slapping that asshole you know! basket....



anyways, have been spending time with cerlyn.. damnit.. stupid stupid shit that we have done.. like... one action says it all ^ confusion. basket.. damn lame la...


LOL.. stupid bitch.. UH.

anddddddddddd i have enrolled my car license today~!! whoohooooooooo


okay. that's all.

my new school bag!
so darn cute right?
LOL

watched chocolate with my good friend today... hmm.. story line was kinda weak but the action was good stuff..

hmm. if you didn't tell me the truth, then maybe i wouldn't be so different.

This town is colder now, I think it's sick of us 
It's time to make our move, I'm shakin off the rust 
I've got my heart set on anywhere but here 
I'm staring down myself, counting up the years 
Steady hands, just take the wheel... 
And every glance is killing me 
Time to make one last appeal... for the life I lead 

Stop and stare 
I think I'm moving but I go nowhere 
Yeah I know that everyone gets scared 
But I've become what I can't be, oh 
Stop and stare 
You start to wonder why you're 'here' not there 
And you'd give anything to get what's fair 
But fair ain't what you really need 
Oh, can u see what I see 

They're tryin to come back, all my senses push 
Un-tie the weight bags, I never thought I could... 
Steady feet, don't fail me now 
Gonna run till you can't walk 
But something pulls my focus out 
And I'm standing down... 

Stop and stare 
I think I'm moving but I go nowhere 
Yeah I know that everyone gets scared 
But I've become what I can't be, oh 
Stop and stare 
You start to wonder why you're here not there 
And you'd give anything to get what's fair 
But fair ain't what you really need 
Oh, you don't need 

What u need, what u need... 

Stop and stare 
I think I'm moving but I go nowhere 
Yeah I know that everyone gets scared 
But I've become what I can't be 
Oh, do u see what I see...

stop and stare - one republic.

loves *glees*

haaa.. today's a day that is super super thrilling la!

went to smoke with my classmatessss at some more very not supposed to smoke at.. then... nearly got caught. damn it.. this sorta feeling is THRILLING FUCK. haha. i like this sorta exhilarating thrill. its fun man. haha..

but kinda scary =X

haha.. have been having good laughs with my classmates and my cousin and friends. super fun.. enjoying my life now.. maybe all looks perfect.. just lack of a lover to love. LOL. but what do i want.. actually im quite contented with all that i have now... its just gonna take like maybe 5 more months for me to go find a lover. seriously, i think that loving takes up too much of my time... like now, i don't have a friend that can hang out with me everyday.. and i can't keep bothering my bitch.. she has her own life and stuff.. oh wells lets see. going to go home for dinner today... like ayam ponteh sia! so long never eaten that already.. really miss home cooked food.. oh wells....

i really am quite contented with my life.. im gonna heck the loving stuff for the moment.. i want to take up muay thai and prolly guitaring lessons as well.. dom's friend can play darn well! fuck. i wanna be that good too.. haha.. love class, love school, love life!

haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. i nearly died today. i thought there was pe but thankfully there isn't any. and im quite appeased with my emotions now.


I WANNA HAVE MCGRIDDLES la fuck. LOL..

i hate...

liars.
assholes,
bastards.
fuckers. (literally)
LIARS.


i love
me, cerlyn, dom, cheryl, han, dom's smoking khakis, jonathan, CORINNE, nurul..

yeah. this are the few people that really care. oh wells. =) i miss han.. haven't met him up in a while. remember jon! k box date on 25th! whee. hope he brings me to that french restaurant he promised. LOL. these rare few and nice people are definitely worth my love, care and time. i love them =)

cerlyn wanted an update.

okay.


UPDATE.

whee... things are getting better.. im getting over it better now.. i really miss you very much... sian.. but when i sms you.. you're like having this firewall giving me like very patronizing tones in your sms.. kinda sian diao.. oh wells..

haha. im a happy girl. im a really happy girl now. =)

i so wanna have aston's tonight. you know why i want it? cause i dropped by gardens yesterday and it wasn't open. so pek chek! some more my friend drove us all the way there.. pfftt...

im kinda disappointed. seriously.. i don't know whether you mean it or not but right now, i feel that it really shocked me quite a bit. oh wells. but its over.. so whatever is over is over.. im just gonna need to talk to you abit about it. if not, i feel very... pfftt..


forget it. im gonna go have breakfast now. YUMMY.

i am sleepy again. i don't know why but i slept at 1 plus last night. was talking to her last night about the current situation. she was telling me that guys are jerks and she didn't want to see me hurt and stuff... pfftt. i guess this is part of every relationship til you find the right one. oh barnacles.


i need a haircut. soon. it is so long now. i look so hush puppy. -.-

i miss my god brother. i wanna meet up with him soon~

damnit. im so fucking sleepy now cause i was @ stjames til 2 in the morn. hafta be up at 7 and gone by 0730. darn. drank my love... vodka lime and whisky coke.... pfftt

well bitch, it didn't really matter that clubbing that didn't happen cause in the end we chilled out at macs and had our fair share of fun =) whee. i love girls talk. its so.. entertaining and fun. especially when there's a common gossip topic. LOL. i love my bitch.


oh wells..


im really stuck in this decision.. sooooo.. i think im gonna say no.

haa. hopefully clubbing will finally happen tonight. so that i won't be bored.. i hate having nothing to do on fri nights.. i mean its fri.. how can you have nothing to do? LOL. guess im addicted to the night life that im having now..

thanks to buddy that im having frequent rides to everywhere. im super dependant on a car now. damnit. i need to get my license soon.. i miss my bitch.. better meet up soon you idiot. im having a deja vu now of typing this entry. haa. whatever.