i wish i knew how to love you better.

yeah! finally a proper photo of me and audee! teehee..

stella and i! can't remember if audee or bitch took this photo.

hohoho. the two crazy fellas.

take two cause cerlyn's never satisfied. =X

take one cause i was trying to sniffle a laugh.

take two we were definitely laughing out loud now.

cerlyn somehow loves to cut off people's head -.-

audee to the rescue!

bitch and me!

stella and i!

us... again..

cerlyn's poor photo taking skills.

again, cerlyn's the photographer

she's improved quite a bit i must say.

teehee! nice one finally.

this time, she cut herself out. -.-



okay.. the photos are definitely not in chronological order so please do not try to link the captions or anything.. if you can then good for you! but if i were you, i wouldn't try. okay.. anyways, stella came back from china not long and we decided to go club cause she wanted to see boys.. (*singapore boys are not that worth actually =X) haha. erm.. then we met up at dhoby's nel to meet up.. met audee at toa payoh though. anyways, then we headed down to mos after grabbing a quick bite at bk.. we went in quite early i must say.. then we hanged around.. we went to get drinks.. then at that point, audee got approached by some angmo.. haha! so funny please.. the angmo like a bit drunk.. =X hmmm then we went to smoove to start our nonsense and dancing. then we shifted from main arena to smoove, smoove to main arena and basically stuck out butt at main arena's cushion for a while =X too tired and the killer heels were killing my feet. i thought i felt my feet dead for a moment =X then there was this girl who wanted a fuck or something. she was so skimpily dressed! and she kept like trying to dance erotic moves but i don't know.. it just didn't come out as well as it should? yeahh.wierd.. haha. then made a new friend @ smoove.. she's called yuriko..24 living in singapore.. haha. hope to see her @ mos again since she's a freq at mos. teehee..

then we headed out to riverside for awhile then headed back with audee first... then bitch and stella went to eat.. -.- cerlyn wanted zhu chao for goodness sakes. =.=

yepp. interesting day, lotsa of photos. TTYL!

camwhoring @ emmax's toilet

cerlyn's major fuck face.

comeon! we sell delicious wings.

okay, the final unglam photo. haha.

after morning's craziness, we headed down to toa payoh to go to em max.. this company that we are working for. wanna know more? TAG MEEEEEE. ermm. ya. anyways, we just went there for briefing and stuff.. gonna head there down tonight again!

ah lian impersonation 1

ah lian impersonation 2

i don't know what impersonation this is.

ah lian impersonation 3

well, yesterday was a fun filled day. morning, went to meet cerlyn yeo to get t shirts from this it show that we will be working at.. hmmm.. then as we were cabbing back to kovan. she had this sudden desire to take ah lian impersonated photos. CERLYN YEO TOOK APLENTY! then according to her, she deleted it down to three... sheesh! well, all i took was this four and ended up laughing hell alot. it was one of the silliest moments ever!!

aiyah... spell wrongly only mahh.. don't need like that right? hee..

was reading this blog cerlyn sent me online last night.. its so sad.. the girl's prolly our age but because of a tragic car accident.. she has passed away... its just so sad and its making think about my life now about what i should do and i should really stop procrastinating so much.. and audee was telling me about her sec school mate who got into a bike accident as well.. and he just passed away last night. i think audee's gonna go to his wake tomorrow or tonight. i don't know.. oh wells..


and im not feeling too good myself.. im falling ill as i type... my body feels really weak andddd sleeeeeeeeppyyyy...

10 things i want to do before end of this year.
1. attend school regularly.
2. hand in pp on time.
3. be more pro active in sports.
4. get my tan done.
5. get a job that pays me enough to buy audee something nice.
6. to go to mt faber to have a date with audee.
7. clear at least half of my driving license.
8. go mt emily with audee.
9. go night safari for my very first time.
10. go haji lane and take pretty photos.

why i say before end of this year? my nature is to procrastinate as much as i can until i do absolutely nothing. so... i have to do all of this and i have a sudden craving for ham! i miss my audee.

cerlyn!!! i wanna go club.. =X can i crash in on wed?

audee's photo of the day. teehee.

i told you i would upload a photo of you everyday!! hee. =)

i wanna watch dark knight!!!!!! jovin doesn't mind watching again.. but im waiting to watch it with audee. when she's free this week. =))


you're missed audee!


oh ya. cerlyn yeo don't go bangkok too long. i will miss you too much and please ah. don't bring a ah kua home. i know you're getting lonely but im still here for you.. is you don't want me lor. =(

i don't know why audee was so listless today.. think she's tired from work? oh wells.. felt kinda pfftt too.. oh wells.. here's audee's photo of the day =)

i want to update many photos.. but! audee will prolly kill me!


TEEHEE. thick skin pink pig!

tell me again why am i black hearted?

i need to grow up, think better, be more responsible for myself and have a discipline in life.

this is all i have to say.

i just want to do this and see what happens. (: im just satisfied with what i have on the plate. whatever that comes my way, i will deal with it.


I LOVE MY AUDEE!

i really feel damn chui now.

wah lao. after hearing what bitch said, i totally feel no confidence already please. the feeling is damn chui please. and actually was quite happy about the current situation.. and i know bitch is telling me all this for my own good. but sometimes, i don't wanna think so far anymore. like after one time you fall like this, you tend to be more cautious about placing everything in one basket. i know.. i know if one day there has to end and the fact that we are too fresh with each other makes this even more tangible.. i know im too old for this sort of relationship.. but sometimes, when you think too much about the bad than the good, you might end up missing a good lover. i can't be bothered much already.. really. sometimes, i just want to go into it and even if i have to come out all in brusies.. i can't be bothered already. i just want to give everything a shot.

after being with roy, you know.. i learnt a lot. its like, all the hurt tells me that planning too far will get you nowhere. its like how much i want to give roy and even to the extent of going overseas to live together. but after roy crushed my expectations and heart, its very difficult for me to plan that far. what the future holds will come. ya. taking one step at a time can hurt many people along the way. but this is the best for me now and i think its the same for audee.


for now, we only know each other for say max 2 weeks, we liked and dated and are now together. ya. too fast. but sometimes, i just want to go and see what can happen. bitch, you should know that im quite a stubborn person also. but not is not wo jiang bu ting. but now i really.. aiyah. i explain so much also mcm i trying to convince myself.

forget it. if it happens,it happens. i can't be bothered anymore..



to audee - i like you very much still and taking things slow are the best option now i suppose. i have yet to know you and you have yet to know me. oh wells.

can anybody tell me why my tagboard is not showing? im so sad la.. that's like my way of communicating to pepper.. =(

went to meet audee just now.. after going to toa payoh with bitch for some job interview thing.. then.. went to meet audee.. audee has fun friends =) well, i do hope i can have a group of friends like this after rp years.. =\ audee keeps asking for presents please!! i give a lot le horrrrrrr=X


i miss audee... audee's sleeping and i should too.


=)aud's.

yeah! its offical.. by my standard now..

i am officially deprived of sleep now. i was out til 6 am with aud.. then yesterday, aud joined me, cerlyn and allan for supper and trip to changi v and east coast.. and yesterday, i reached home at 4 am.. thankfully.. i managed to get 4 hours of sleep last night.. and now.. my lenses are horribly dry cause my eyes are too tired to even regulate tears in my eyes now...


it was fun overall. just that im too stoned and im typing a lot of typos. =X will talk later..




aud's!

Chris Brown - Is this Love?
[Verse 1]
17 tight jeans and she bout it
White beater T, pretty teeth, yeah she got 'em
Her body commands your attention (she keeps it so gutta man)
Can I take u out, I'll pay for it
Girl I got enough, so enjoy it
I'm hoping that your momma don't mind
Cause girl I gotta make you mine (yeah)
(Ohhh) Girl give me a chance I'm a take it
(Ohhh) Yeah I know I'm young but I'll take it
I just gotta know (yeah)

[Chorus]
Is this love
Because I gotta know, is this real
Girl I gotta know, is it you taking over my heart
If its love, then all my girls and them I gotta give them up
My playing days is over I gotta hang it up
I gotta know, I gotta know, yeah, is this love

[Verse 2]
If she gotta man I don't care because I need her
I gotta girl but if she want I'm a leave her
She can be the girl that I'm putting on (she keep it so gutta
her man)
I'm a b the nigga that'll change her
Make that other dude like a stranger
I just gotta know (tell me)

[Chorus]
Is this love
Because I gotta know, is this real
Girl I gotta know, is it you taking over my heart
If its love, then all my girls and them I gotta give them up
My playing days is over I gotta hang it up
I gotta know, I gotta know, yeah, is this love

[Bridge]
I ain't been doing much sleeping
Just daydreaming
Cause she's all up in my head
And I can't take it
I ain't never, ever felt like this
I gotta know, I gotta know
Is this how love really is

[Chorus 2x]
Is this love
Because I gotta know, is this real
Girl I gotta know, is it you taking over my heart
If its love, then all my girls and them I gotta give them up
My playing days is over I gotta hang it up
I gotta know, I gotta know, yeah, is this love

at the 360th post, something came by my way so sudden.. i just hope it won't leave so sudden as how it came. =)


actually, im pretty glad it came my way.

well, cerlyn popped over for a game of mahjong last night.. haha.. she's seen the wierd side of my parents now.. and how small my room really is aye? but its messy as hell.

just finished watching transformers again. yes again. i can never get sick of the show. its so interesting and never boring. hot lead actress. what more can i say. =P haha. bumblebee is funny and jazz is da bomb! haha. optimus prime is like the brother of all... hmmm..ahh.. i forgot the other two name. =X but the weapons guy is funny too.. "feeling lucky, punk?" " oh.. i was just kidding.. wanted to show him my cannons." damn. lol.. "you have a rodent infestation. shall i take it out for you?" "parents are irritating. can i take them out?" haha.. that's so silly.. the medic guy was silly too.. " the boy's homornal level suggests that he wants to mate with the girl." haha.

oh wells. i love transformers. =D

what am i doing on a sat evening writing my 358th post?





damn. its a boring evening.

when you are bored at liquid kitchen and talking about holiday destinations such as kukup, remember to ask cerlyn along. she knows all about it.. not in her brain but in her ASS.


zomg.. yesterday night, i went to meet cerlyn and allan. it was the most hilarious night ever. i cried till my mascara smudged and allan was just laughing all over the place. okay.. we went to liquid@gardens to chill last night.. so we were just sitting around and talking nonsense.. then cerlyn suddenly asked me whether i wanted to go kukup with her and her family.. i was like yeah, why not? then she asked allan as well.

cerlyn : eh. you want go kukup not?

allan : where is kukup?

cerlyn : -.- MY ASS.


wahhhh.. we couldn't help but to burst out in laughter 3 mins later. the problem of it not being funny later became the jack point for cerlyn... well, we were like.. so kukup's in your ass? woah.. that's so huge la.. no wonder your ass is so big.. then in came the customs.. illegal goods.. the whole of m'sia being in her --- then the forest being part of her. and mas selamt escaped there and stuff..

its not funny when re-told but really funny when it happened.. haha cerlyn and her reactions.. darn funny la.. oh man... so fun!!!

kk. i shall stop here. cerlyn's gonna get pissed now!!

hokay. my facilitator has officially announced that there's a dress up day on the 1st aug for us to attend class..buttt. the only catch is everyone has to be in office wear,... darn.. good awkwardness and class bonding. i hate heels.

i will update this first before updating what cerlyn yeo has done yesterday..

41 ways to lose fats ladies!!


http://www.webmd.com/fitness-exercise/features/flatten-your-belly

this is the logo that i drew myself. CUTE RIGHT!!!

this is the mascot.. TRACED by ganlin.. that very.... fella.

the entire poster!! cool shyte right?

hoho. another view of the poster. i love it man!


this was what i did in class beside reminiscing about sec school! whoohoo!

zomg.. i realised that everyone is reminiscing about sec school days... quite to think of it.. i miss it quite a bit too.. like how we're nonchalant about everything, especially dressing and hair. hair besides the school codes... its like the uniform made everything so much simpler.. but being in poly now, when i then thought it would be cool without uniforms, i am dying every night.. trying to figure out what to wear to school the next day.-.- damn..

i miss.... sitting at the back of the class.. hiding our phones and trying to sms other people as much as we can. then gossiping as much as we can.. eating in class.. changing in class for pe lessons... learning how to spell diarrhea.. concocting as much lame reasons to skip classes.. sick bay before pl@lor ah soo had a major renovation... Dnt lesson that i always never seem to do my work...stealing dnt resources.. especially the clear green acrylic...how we always seem to able to steal reams and reams of school foolscap paper,pens and textbooks and workbooks.. how i tried so hard to be cool but in the end failed somehow.. how we sat together after exams playing silly games and recording of our singing into a forbidden mp3 that we cannot bring in to school.

oh man.. like how we love to break rules and then try to avoid being caught.. damn.. sec school is hell lots of fun man!

damn.. now i really really miss sec school. =(

well, outings with cerlyn can never be boring. like how i found out about the mystery.. oops.. i meant the mistress of spices. and seriously, from what i heard, it has gotta be the lamest show ever. like there was a scence where the lady has to grab a bunch of spice and go, "oh spices! tell me what should i do now?"

like what can a chilli tell you? hmm.. its red hot sexy body totally means sex? uhhh no honey.. not helping.. or maybe pepper could give you a good excuse off work. sheesh!! spices..

cerlyn suggested that i should go do fruits.. which i might actually. lol. like maybe a parody of mistress of spices to mystery of fruits. haha. and anyways, on the bus ride home, had a good time squashing cerlyn and her muscle ache has somewhat evolved into like a muscle tear. and i had to explain to her between muscle ache, twisted muscle and muscle tear. thank you very much. heh!


anyways! im really sick of school. i just want toget my butt out and work but with an o level, what the fuck can i get.. sheesh. i just have to grit my teeth through like the next one and a half year. well, til then, can anyone get me some like large amount of cash so that i don't have to worry about money? like so that i can spend on anything i want.. okay.. im asking for tooo much already.. aite.. heading to bed now.. NIGHTS!

i think that french is sex! i love how french is being spoken and the flow that your tongue fights against to pronounce it for a non-french like me. hmmm.. did i need to mention that french guys, SOME, are so hot that i cannot resist drooling over? okay. maybe not til the point of drooling. =X

still, french is so sexy!!


anyways, im starting to have a new eyecandy in action.. my hottie! =)

for this, i got fined 200 bucks for littering. what the fuck man. damn suay la. but at least i got my pdl already.. so it balances my mood for the day!~ wheee. LOL

She can get along without a man easier than any female you'll ever meet.
The Aries girl will open her own doors. Shell also put on her own coat,
fight her own battles, pull out her own chair, hail her taxi and light her cigarette without any masculine help.
Her flight is based on the fear of getting tangled up with a worshiping slave or a lovestruck puppy dog,
either one of whom would bore her to tears. A man who resists her impact always intrigues an Aries female.
Let her know you admire her, but don't be too flowery or sugary about it.
Here's the typical Arien contradic­tion in her: she doesn't want to be obviously chased, yet she quickly loses interest if you're too detached.
"What's hers is hers" in the romance department, and it will take very little to set off a jealous explosion.

Memorize that, if you care deeply about her- and it's doubtful that she'll stand for you caring about her any other way.
The Aries girl insists on complete freedom.
An Aries girl is seldom able to love two men at the same time. She's simply too honest for such deception.
She's immune to wolves and playboys, and in far more danger of being seduced by an idealist with a cause, preferably a lost cause.

Keeping a secret from her can drive her wild, and it's not a good idea to drive an Aries wild. Don't ever embarrass her by your grammar,
clothing or behavior in public.

Always defend her against her enemies. She can never forgive you if you fail to fight for her or take her side.
These women are nothing if not loyal.
There's a vain streak in a Mars woman which makes her sensitive about everything from her age to an innocent remark about how tired she looks.
Lots of people will tell you an Aries woman is completely masculine, but don't you believe them. She's all woman underneath her flashing,
forceful exterior, perhaps too much woman for the average man.
Don't forget that she bruises easily, in spite of her bright, brave smile.
The Aries girl will help you find your lost illusions and she'll have a fierce faith in all your dreams

hokay.. here we go again.. hmm..

well!! i totally forgot to blog about this hilarious entry. LOL i was on the train the other day with my 2 friends.. so apparently, my one friend talked about having your butt scanned so that you pay for like a seating fare.. and i thought of having your feet scanned for standing fare.. and of course. the two fares would be different. =P haha. it really was quite funny.. haha and my friend who talked about having butt scanned is such a cute guy. =X but too bad.. he is... gay.. LOL.. but gay friends are the funnest people on earth!!


oh yes.. went out with jovin yesterday.. it was a real joy to go out with him.. we went for pasta de waraku. i had a soup pasta and he had the cuttlefish ink pasta.. his was horribly black. i had the honour of tasting it first.. it.. wasn't that bad just kinda plain. yeah. hmmm.. yeah. my soup one was not too bad! hee.. then we wanted to go for mango lingo but it was closed.. and thennnn we headed to cathay to catch hancock.. it was a good show... comedy action. i like action.. but i hate gore. how contradicting aye? =X hmm.. then he tried to speak hokkien cause his buddy's a hokkien beng.. it sounded so funny with his texas accent.. haha. like bo pian. everything also bo pian. =P and to top it off.. he is sooooo hot. and darn bloddy cute!!! damnit..


then after which, i went to meet chalk for dinner cause jovin went to meet his friend at chua chu kang.. friggin far place... and then.. went to eat foodcourt.. haha.. finally.. i haven't had like food court food in ages. =X then we walked around.. went to spotlight to get a glue.. then... met up with his drummer.. chalk's in a band by the way.. eric.. eric is quite a funny person. okay.. after which we went to play in the arcade. played house of the dead 4.. chalk's quite a pro ah.. he can memorize the squence.. lol. then eric took over for a game.. haha.. quite funny.. then eric went to meet the other band mate and chalk decided to stay for king of fighters.. man... king of fighters reminds me of cerlyn and kenny and kenny's friend. haha. that's a story for another time. =X hmm.. after which.. we went to tcc to meet up. then went over to their band prac place.. its nice small and comfy but really ulu.. like the kind of place you will go to like do illegal dealings.. NAH. IM JUST KIDDING.lol.

soo then.. i left abruptly with chalk cause his ex was in kind of a trouble that i thought it was unecessary for him to go and like settle cause its pointless and even if he was there, what can he do about it? so yeah.. sent him to his place first then i headed home.. but was glad that i headed home.. was starting to feel tired. i would have totally fallen asleep there if i had to stay til 5.. tv didn't even had a proper connection. =X haha. yeahh..


anyhow, yesterday was definitely a good day.. jovin made it fun. =X

Lee Ryan's Army of Lovers

There's an army of lovers
dying to meet you
dying to make your acquaintance
It could be you
Or it could be me
So dont let go
because i need you so

I'm yours and you are mine
Theres something about you baby
I wanna hold you tonight

Accidents happen strangest of places
How can they happen at all?
Look for the turning, something or nothing
I wont let go
because i need you so

I'm yours
and you are mine
There's something about you baby
I wanna hold you tonight

Everytime i see you you complete my life
Gotta find an answer
Stay with me tonight
stay with me
oh baby
wont you stay with me
stay with me

Theres an army of lovers dying to meet you
Dying to make your acquaintance]  

hokay. so.. so much so for unglam moments with cerlyn.. i really have to thank her like hell a lot for putting up with my nonsense and going through so much of my shit moments with me. i know it sounds kinda wrong but seriously, she's one of the best friend one can ever find on like nowhere else on earth..

haa.. im lurvinn xin yue tuan at the moment. there's one other band that is quite similar to them but i can't seem to remember the name of the band.. darn.. okay. im listening to lee ryan's army of lovers.. and its been a heck of an old song but i love it! its.. nice.. =\


haha. k. im bored. you get the idea.

the not so glamour moments when you are with cerlyn yeo. you really do a lot of stupid but fun things.. damn..

haa... bitch came to meet me after work.. guessed who i saw on the bus on the way to gardens. SARAH HOE LA. like, seriously... it was good meeting her again.. im so glad that i saw her.. that poor thing looks awfully dejected.. think i will go zouk on thurs to accompany her.. i might sacrifice school for her.. the thing im afraid is that she'll get drunk. -.-

weeeell.. after which, i headed to liquid kitchen with cerlyn to just get a beer and yeah. hanged out for a while.. then we headed home. watch a movie.. seducing mr perfect. daniel henny is fucking hot.. basket.. if only he is my bf.. LOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOL. which will never happen in a gazilion years. =) daniel henny, if you ever ever read this, please tag. i'd love to speak to you. LOL.

ZOMG IM SO FUCKING ELATED LA!

LIKE I TOTALLY GOT OFFERED TO DO A PHOTO SHOOT WITH A EXPERIENCE MODEL PLEASE!

doyouknowhowfuckingexcitingthisis?!!!


wahahahaha and i made sales at store today. wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

ahh.. i desperately need to shop before singapore sales is like over. annndddd..

im still waiting for that damned person to return me my money cause she like claims that she needs her money for work but i think its more for like her new lover. like totally fuck off la. you wanna have a lover then fucking clear your debts first can. basket. you think what? my money like that give you eat ah? crazy bitch.. still trying to act macho all.. ah. piss off la you.

above are the pictures of a new necklace that cerlyn bought for me.. omg. this is like what i've been waiting to buy and kinda forgot about it luhh.. haha. and she brought me for waruku today.. cool ain't? i love my best friend!!