wah lao. after hearing what bitch said, i totally feel no confidence already please. the feeling is damn chui please. and actually was quite happy about the current situation.. and i know bitch is telling me all this for my own good. but sometimes, i don't wanna think so far anymore. like after one time you fall like this, you tend to be more cautious about placing everything in one basket. i know.. i know if one day there has to end and the fact that we are too fresh with each other makes this even more tangible.. i know im too old for this sort of relationship.. but sometimes, when you think too much about the bad than the good, you might end up missing a good lover. i can't be bothered much already.. really. sometimes, i just want to go into it and even if i have to come out all in brusies.. i can't be bothered already. i just want to give everything a shot.

after being with roy, you know.. i learnt a lot. its like, all the hurt tells me that planning too far will get you nowhere. its like how much i want to give roy and even to the extent of going overseas to live together. but after roy crushed my expectations and heart, its very difficult for me to plan that far. what the future holds will come. ya. taking one step at a time can hurt many people along the way. but this is the best for me now and i think its the same for audee.


for now, we only know each other for say max 2 weeks, we liked and dated and are now together. ya. too fast. but sometimes, i just want to go and see what can happen. bitch, you should know that im quite a stubborn person also. but not is not wo jiang bu ting. but now i really.. aiyah. i explain so much also mcm i trying to convince myself.

forget it. if it happens,it happens. i can't be bothered anymore..



to audee - i like you very much still and taking things slow are the best option now i suppose. i have yet to know you and you have yet to know me. oh wells.