i want to cheesed baked rice now.
i want to have some malay food now.
i want to eat bak chor mee now.
i want to sleep now.
i want to have that special someone to appear in front of me and hold me in the arms.
i want to sleep in peace.
i want to have lots of cash to spend.
i want to have more discipline.
i want to have lots of wishes.












how about i just want you?

dblo-ed last night.. haha. my mother said i looked like a teddy bear, door bitch says i look cute, ben says i look artsy fartsy. haha! and nicole says i look cute too =D yeah! haha.


mel's cam has this nice way of taking lightings like this and i look damn nice.. haha!




ben and his jiao bin.. i really want to sidekick him already.

now with a fake smile. what's up with that siol!



haaaaaaaaaaaaaa. i look damn gone in this photo, even before the shot! damnnnnnnnn

haha, but all in all.. it was a fun night and moreover, mel and i were acting lesbiannnnnn.. haha. funny, funny.. uhhh.. and i was unglam last night.. puked in dblo.. fuck.. damn ps la! then went to supper even though i won ben by 3-1 in scissors, paper stones. haha. that ass cheated in one round too. ROAR.


in the arms of MY angels.

just when everything decides to settle down, just when i thought my life was close to perfect... i had to have this huge bombshell drop at this moment. i don't know whether to cry or to just stay mono. all i know is that im not very happy and i can't really bring myself to smile when im alone..


sighs, why?

added 3 more photos. =D







the phuture was so yesterday, and today's dblo.

zomg! k totally reminded me about last night. haha..

weeeeelll, nic and i were being nice and came to fetch k from training. then, we headed to coffee shop for dinner. well, i ordered pepsi, k teh peng and nicole..... moutain dew! well, well. when the aunty came to take our drinks order, nic confidently said mountain dew. then when the aunty gave her the mountain dew, she was like no.. i want ice mountain. then the aunty was like huh? but you wanted mountain dew! then nic got kinda pissed. but k and i heard mountain dew very clearly! k even gave her a look and i was thinking maybe she saw someone drinking mountain dew and decided to get one too..but after remembering she doesn't drink gassy and sweet stuff.. i was kinda hmmmmmmm.... zomg.. so funny... then k.. being herself as usual thought the aunty would say to nic (in chinese) go to the mountain and take the water. -.-




then! they suddenly jaws all at the table.. it was kinda funny at first... BUT THEN. some fella had to clear his fucking throat like damn fucking loudly and disgustingly. i couldn't help but laugh even harder.. i laughed til i cried.. my stomach kan painful... haha. damn funny la! bth!!! its like at the moment when nic's and k's shark was about to meet then that fella made that noise.. haha. damn funny la!! zomggggggggg

i want to blog about something but everytime i come to the blogger page, words just seem to slip away from me. =( damnit. i feel so..... stupid suddenly.


ROAR.finally im going clubbing tonight. the feeling's kinda excited but at the same time, i don't quite feel like going. but lance! all for you hor. your birthday party la.

im thinking of taking up hip hop classes. i love the way the move and stuff. so darn smooth. imagine i do that in a club, woot! heaps of unwanted attention.

OH YA! why i have a good life? cause, i have good friends, problems with family settled and i feel loved 24/7 =) oh man. my life is close to perfect now. i have nothing else to worry 'cept for cash. so.. that's the only imperfection :D so if you have any like donations that you would like to make, please dial 1800-xtina-need-some-funds. =P

bounce, bounce what?

okayyy.. let's see... im really bored now.. im home and i will sleep early for sure... although its not very early but ya. ermmmm.

I HAVE A GOOD LIFE THANK YOU VERY MUCH.

i intended to blog in class today.. but! it was too fun in class and i was late and all.. haha!

i cannot tell you how this box of chocolates has sweeten my life so much more. God really has His ways of making my life better with sooo much good friends..



thank you mel for this box of chocolates. you really don't know how touched i am okayy.... =DDDDDDDD




"forgot t tell you tt ti bought the chocs becos i appreciate you and our friendship. Glad t know you. And you are one friend whom i'll always be there for."

OMGSTOPIT.YOU'REANNOYINGME!


haha. i have been saying that A LOT. especially to k and nicole. omg.. i cannot tell you how sexy my voice still is and im very happy that it is still.. haha. cause my voice has never been this sexy. omg. but my throat hurts like hell. sheesh. i think i cough too much already.


AND NICOLE IS NOT AWAKE!

weeeellll.. had chalet yesterday and went to visit grandma.. let the photos talk baby!


my sickly grandma..she lost so much weight!

another photo of her.. damn.. quite sad ah...

omg! did i mention that i saw my lovely evan? i love her!

this gorgeous girl looks so much better now after putting on a tad bit of weight =D

another pic of us...

tootsies night with k's specs!!

my gorgeous gorgeous huge eyes. LOL.

nicole's face half gone =X

hahahhaha. check out nicole's antenna..she think she is some random alien. haha! love our specs. cool shit aite!

omg. blacky passed away =(( blacky.. i miss you so much... and i just saw you on sunday.. and... and.. omg blacky. i just miss you so much.







and my voice is not getting any better.. ma la steamboat, fried food, ma la u mee... sighs.. tell me how man i am.

omg. im so pissed at my now old working place. annoying.. fired me without informing me, and i have to go find out myself. like total what the hell.


fucking annoying...



but thank you mel and nicole to help me find out job lobangs.
and im very sleepy now. bye.

sighs. im bored.period.

my voice is kan man now. call 1800-xtina-the-man-voice for entertainment.


KE YI MAN.

kayyy.. photo as promised and im off!

today... i had the longest wait of my life. mr benfatboy made me wait an hour plus! zomg. my stomach died-ed many times over i tell you. and i was like... pfftt.. ipod songs quite limited ah. damn it. and my voice is kan sexy now i tell you. sex to the max already. i called cerlyn and then she kept insisting that me is not me speaking to her. then im like.. cb.

CERLYN YEO LI YING! how can you not recognise me la.. damnit!

anyways, met up with fB for lunch at upper thomson. PRATA. woot. kan crispy kan shiok! milo dinosaur but the powder not gao enough. bu shuang! then we walked over to thomson plaza.. he went to find his friend and i went to slack at starbucks first.. whilst waiting for SOMEONE who totally didn't wake up til 4 (kidding mel!), but she really didn't wake up til 4 please. haha. then ben came with this ck model look. i think his needs some mod, especially his stomach please!


ben with his signature ck pose.

ben being such a nice fella, help me carry bag yesterday. =D

spot me piercing!

oh total fuckaroos. i delete myphoto with mel. i will upload after this.




FINALLY, everything is settled and im absolutely at peace with my heart, mind and soul.

ihavetruckloadstosaythatidon'tknowhowtoexpressthemanymore.iwanttoscreammylungsaway.nothingisgoingrightatthismoment.

xtina is sick. for real now. came down with fever last night. siansss...



sorry ben! i was asleep when you came over. =\


oh sighs.. my whole body's aching and my throat doesn't feel good. everything feels heavy.

a very delayed update from dblo! woot! oh man.. these are just the normal photos.. you have yet to see those gone photos.. esp of ben!! haha.

just reached dblo.

another one.

the four of us...

hey, hey crystal!

another crazy photo!

yeah, i was trying to hard.

love my dimple, did i tell you that?

action emo.

hello world. we love you, we really do.

group photo. hey, where you going crystal?

now, a very nice one all together. =)

haha. this is a post photo of drunkard ben. i tell you, his liver is gonna curl up like nobody's business. LOL.

nicole and i@ kbox. this darling has been such a dear accompanying me=))

nicole's cock face at wheel lock. haha. forgot what we were talking about. =\

thurs night @ zouk.. zomg.. i forgot to steal the group photo!

alrights people! friday partay people with 2 new hotties in the house! paige and samantha! haha

second model-ic pose.

spot the piercing.

cb.. my face complexion like shit.. but my piercing is hawt stuff!

adding the twist now.

hello hotties!

now see it in livid colour!





packing my week busy,
trying to keep my mind off you.

sometimes, i don't know why it just happens the way it did.