im going to start ranting in nonsensical language. right. like i will do that even though im at home.
anyways! my hair's screwed and im feeling kinda depressed and sad. i don't know why. i think its just my hair but deep down inside, i know its because i like `you. ah sighs!

i know. you must be thinking, she was just saying that we're all falling in love becuase of our empty vessels and what is she doing now?! JUST TO EXPLAIN: i know God's in my heart but falling in love/like is total humane. =) so im human. =)

anyways, let my complain! haha. hmmm. i like `you because `you were really nice and sweet to me. really hilarious, not to mention. i thought, maybe, just maybe, you could be that special one. after that day, i just knew it. it just slapped me in the face. i felt so down so cold inside despite the fact that my face was laughing or playing along. it was so so so hurtful. its like deja vu.
nooneilikewilleverbetheoneforme.
i keep hurtingmyself. i don't know why. its just so sad, so so so sad. well, i guess im the world biggest loser and joker. your presence is so impactful. i just don't know what to say. really. i just lost all sense of hope again. after the first falling in serious like, i totally went into sub depression. the hurts are resurfacing. love may never be possible in my life cause of all the broken pieces in my heart.

i shall type the model answer thing in another entry. im too un-focus to focus on anything.