there i go again. i hoped and wished so badly that i'll get some personal time but seriously, what was i thinking? it wil never happen. so what if its a special day? it never mattered as much as an off day which was a sacred day cause you get to sleep in and i have to go down to your house to meet you and end up being in your house.

you say you don't have money but yet you are still there.. gees. what's the difference? its always on days that are particularly special that you like to do all these nonsense. i really think that you never hurt me intentionally but unintentionally cause you don't even understand me anymore.

oh wells. forget it. it has always been this way right?

hell my heart hurts but you can't hear me scream cause its too broken.