by monday, i have to make an important decision. this is so important that im actually worried about it and going through serious thinking. (do not even think of jacking me emil.) i don't know what the outcome is.. i don't know what on earth is gonna happen. all i know is that i have shed the tears and now is left the battle between my head and my heart. all i know is that my heart says not to go but my head says that im better off alone. damn. i hate such decisions. shit.. i can start to feel the weight on my heart now.