im missing you so so so so so so so so so so so so so so much.although we quarrelled before ending the conversation, i really want you to know that i love you so much and im really feeling terrible down here. i know you're not doing as great as you'd expected but i really don't know who else will understands how i feels. although there are people who asks me how i am from time to time, but there are times when i just want to call someone up and cry it all out but i know their answers when i talk to them. sometimes, i just rather cry at night in my room because leng zai and my pillow will just comfort me to sleep. like somehow, no one takes the initiative to ask me how i am besides my closest friends. which i really thank God for them. cause without them, i really don't know how else i can survive. as much as you feel lost babe, i feel the same. i can't find that motivation in life any more. i can't do anything right. i don't feel like the same ol me anymore. i can't laugh freely. i can't feel relaxed. and i know that you know the difference between the care that someone who loves you can give and the care of a friend. sighs. i just need you now.