im giving up on everything altogether. im feeling very lost and paranoid about stuff now. i don't know what im thinking now. i don't know what to expect. my emotions are in a wreck now. i really wish that i can have someone beside me now to listen to me talk. im quite done of listening to what others have to say. sometimes i feel that people are more interested in telling me their life stories than having an exchange session. human nature really is selfish. i feel that no matter what, its still down to their own needs and wants. who really gives a care about another? sometimes, i feel that im so drained and no one can be here for me. really, empty and drained feelings. maybe im too fucked up. i don't know. why wouldn't people say it that way?

im still feeling alone. no matter who, they never seem to be able to be here for me anymore.