you know, i just wanted to be loved? i just wanted to feel that i don't need to be in a facade all day long. i removed my mask. i be who i am. people hated it. how can i be so stupid? all these while, no one never cared. well, not really no one. but half the time, it either turns out really bad or sad. either the guy likes me or the girl betrayed my trust. i don't know what can i do, who can i trust.

i know God's there and i thank Him for being there. sometimes, it maybe just my fault for causeing such a downfall in my retarded life.

i want to be understanded.
i need that love you need.
im not someone to be played with.
i need help.
i feel condescended.

maybe its you, maybe not.
how can i be so stupid to believe in all those lies?
maybe i knew.
i just shut my mouth and my heart.
i threw away the key where all the hurts are kept within.

there they are.
struggling, fighting their way out.
they want to be known.
they want to be understanded.
just like me.

you know, give a little more thought for the person you have. you'll never know when he/she will be gone. suicide is so highly rated. i miss my friends that i lost to squabbles. thank God that none of my friends that i know have died. but if anyone of them leaves, i'll die from the knowledge alone. i love my friends. i really try my best to.


i need `you.
i want`you.
but heck, it looks like it'll never come true.
just like all of my other dreams and wishes.

fairytales and reality cannot co-exsist.